Did a strong 3 miles this morning!
My walk was kinda halted today. I finished it pretty strong, but on the way I got stopped by these two drunks in a white vehicle. UGH I FUCKING HATE DRUNKS!!!!!!!!! This is why I don't drink, because I don't wanna look as pathetic as they did. They had me there talking and talking. Well, they were talking, I just stood there trying to be courteous and listen to their BS. They go on and on about a bunch of jibberish. They apparently knew both my mom and dad because they went to school with them. One guy also started asking about my aunt. I'm guessing he had a thing for her back then and to this day hasn't let it go. Then they wanted my phone number so they could give me a job LOL. Yeah right, these losers probably wouldn't even know who they hell the number belonged to. Still they were persistent, so I gave them some crap number to a ghost out there in the world somewhere. Finally, I told them I needed to go or my dogs would scratch the heck out of their ride. Oh man they stunk like alcohol really bad and they were boozing up while they were talking to me. One guy tried getting me to drink, but I told them NO and that I don't drink. I made that really clear and they didn't ask anymore. Anyway, I finally left and finished out my walk. Freakin pisses me off when my momentum gets stopped by bullshit like that! I am NOT out there to socialize, I'm out there to work my ass for my health.
Lisa had her Nursing Entrance exam today. She had to study so she didn't come with me on the walk. She stayed home and got ready. When I got back, I saw her off, then I did my Bowflex workout. I did 2 to 3 sets of every exercise. Then, I did 2 sets of 15 reps on the Ab lounge, and finally I did the exercise bike for 21 minutes this time. I felt Amazing!!
That was my exercise today. I didn't do the evening workout because I needed to try and get Lisa's mind off things. She failed her entrance exam. She was just not focused. She hasn't been focused on things either. She's been dealing with crap at her work and I'm sure the things I had been going thru the last couple weeks have been eating at her as well because I was always talking about it. So we went up to the casino....BIG MISTAKE!! Yup, I was not feeling good this evening. I felt so pissed off, mainly because some of my clothes I believe shrunk. We been going to this new laundry because the regular place we had been going to for over 10 years, that one closed down for some unknown reason, so we had to find a new place. Well I don't know what the hell is going on, but my clothes have shrunk since washing them there. Some of my tshirts were smaller. At first I really thought I was putting on weight and that was another thing that has been depressing me and adding to my shit going on in my head. Anyway, today before we went up to the casino, I tried on these sweaters again. These are the same sweaters I wore back in December when we went to Albuquerque. My favorite was the black one. I wrote about it in one of the blogs last year. I told how I had it in my closet forever and how it used to be really tight and couldn't fit, then how I tried it on last November and it fit me really great and it was comfortable. Well that same sweater, I tried it on about two weeks ago, that sweater along with two other sweaters I bought in December. They still fit me, but they were kinda snug. I freaked out! I thought right away that I was putting on weight, but to test it, I went and tried on this vest I have. This vest is what I measured myself with. Before Fyrescape started, this vest was really small on me and couldn't even close in the front. Well after working my ass off, last October, I realized that not only could that vest close, but I could zip it up in front. That made me sooo proud. Well that vest is just in my closet and hasn't been moved or washed since then. Anyway, I took it out and tried it on. Still fits just the way it did and it still zips up. That's how I knew I wasn't gaining weight. Not only that, but there are these two long sleeve shirts. Back in January, I tried on this black one and it was kinda tight. I was embarrassed of wearing it, but I did. Well, now I can wear that same shirt and it's actually loose and baggy. Both that one and the red one. They're both baggy on me. I've been feeling my stomach getting smaller. Sure as heck wasn't getting bigger, not with all the workouts I've been doing the whole month of March and now throughout April. No way no how! Anyway, that's how I figured that my clothes were shrinking. Another reason is that I have this really nice brown tshirt that I love. The color was really nice, just this really sharp dark brown color. Well now, since washing at that laundry, the color is kinda faded now. It's brown but has a haze to it. That made me so mad! Only hot water, or a hot dryer does that kinda crap. Now that shirt is ruined! So that's what I've been dealing with.
I tried on those sweaters again before going up to the casino and they still felt snug. I tried stretching them out, but no matter what I did, they still felt snug and even though I believe they shrunk, my crazy paranoid mind made me think I just put on a crapload of weight and my stomach grew bigger. So the whole evening I was depressed and angry. Lisa was mad too because she failed her test. Well, it was the absolute worst time to go to that damn casino, but I did anyway thinking that I would win and that would make us both feel better. I lost $40 :( Yup, so that twenty from yesterday, along with the forty from today equals up to sixty bucks. I once again lost $60 to that fuckin casino. This makes six weeks in a row that I lost sixty dollars. I can't believe it!!! I am so done. I am not winning shit at that damn place. I'm just feeding those damn machines. Here the other day, someone up there won a jackpot of over $530,000 on one of the machines. Can you believe that?! Omg I just don't see how. Here every damn time I go up there, I don't win shit. So I'm done! I'm going to make my money the old fashion way and work for it. I'm sick of going up there and leaving disappointed. I'm so done!
So afterwards, we left and went into town and spent the last bit on money I had on some supper, then we came home, ate and now I'm going to bed. This day has just been CURSED. That's how I described it. Lisa failed her test (but she can take it again in a month), my walk this morning got interrupted by those drunks earlier, and I lost all the money I had to that damn casino. So screw it, I'm done for the day. Such a TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO GOOD, VERY BAD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
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