"TODAY IS THE GREATEST...DAY I'VE EVER KNOWN..." -Smashing Pumpkins
WOW!!! One whole year of Fyrescape!!! This is Amazing ;}
Last year on this day, I went to the hospital and the nurse there told me how bad my weight was. I thought I had a hernia, but after a visit with the surgeon, he told me that it was my umbilical cord, from when I was a baby. Some nonsense like that. Basically, normal, but that if it ever got bad or painful, then to come on back and they'd fix it up no problem.
The doc was more worried about my weight, so she urged me to get on my diet and start exercising. Knowing I wasn't going to die, that really boosted me up. I decided to take my life seriously and stop screwing around. All those problems I had over the years since working at Walmart in 2003, they had to stop! I needed to be a better person both physically and mentally. My name is Fyre, or that's what I'm known by. I've had this word for years now. I just came up with it one day, but I never knew what I could use if for. That word was, Fyrescape.
On my way home from the hospital, I thought about this new Journey I was going to be on. Then the next day, April 29, 2014, I decided to call it, Fyrescape: My Journey Back to Excellence! Now, it's been one full year and I'm happy to say that I've made a huge change in my body. My blood pressure went down, which was what the doc was worried about. My weight went down. My body feels great! Another thing, my mental health is so much more better than it used to be. I've learned so much over this year through my experiences and things I've figured out thru past experiences. My best friend, Lisa, has been there and helped me out thru it all. Most importantly, though, I am who I am now because of God. He has taught me everything I know now and has put me in so many experiences where I learned so much. All I am or ever will be is because of God, my Heavenly Father, Our Heavenly Father. I would not be anything without Him. I shall honor Him everyday of my life and do my best to teach those around me to honor Him as well.
The things I've leaned, I will apply to my everyday life! I will be that unicorn that I know I can be. I will never let disruptive things rule my life and cause me to lose my focus. I will cherish those who support me and push me to be better, and I will let go of those who use me for their benefit. I will stand up for what I believe in and live my life the way I want to, and not do things just because it pleases others. I will focus on my exercising everyday and never let that go! I will go back to work this year and work everyday for as long as I'm able. I'm planning on getting my CDL license, but I may have to work to save up the money to take the class. Either way, I'm going to do it all my own. I won't rely on anyone to fix my problems, or help me fix my problems. I'm going to do everything on my own because I am my own man and I don't need ppl helping me. I'm going to help others when I can and never be selfish, like so many I have met, though I will never let myself get taken advantage of. I will focus on being physically fit and never letting that go. The rest of my life will be a life of fitness and better health. I will never neglect my body, as it's the only one I'll ever have and I need it to get thru this life. I'll always respect myself and others. I will never look down at myself and see disappointment. I'll be positive about everything and I won't tear myself down. I am a Unicorn and unicorns Never feel disappointed or negative about themselves or others. They are on their own pane, in their own world every moment of their existence. That is who I am and forever will be!
Today I did my 3 miles! I did some running.
Finished my morning workout with Bowflex, doing 2 sets of each exercise.
I followed that up with my Ab lounge workout.
Then did 22 minutes on the exercise bike!
I think the rest of the day, I'm going to take it easy. I'm feeling a slight discomfort in my stomach. I don't know what it is. Lisa thinks I may have pulled something, but I don't know. Maybe she's right. Just to be safe, I'm going to call off my workout the rest of the day. It's been a great few days of workouts and I'm very proud of the progress I've made over this entire year. I will never forget this Amazing year of Fyrescape. This year has really made a BIG HUGE DIFFERENCE in my life and will continue to do so for the rest of my life. Because of this year of Fyrescape, my life will never be the same, it will be better. I won't be shy about myself anymore because I bettered myself over this year. I'm now a Unicorn. It won't be long before I'm a Mystic Dragon. That is what I'll be working towards tomorrow, April 29, 2015. My Fyrescape 2 begins. I'm looking forward to new challenges, but with them being faced with all the new things I have learned during this year. So much I'm excited for. This will be a great time in my life, I can feel it. It won't be easy, but it will be something to remember, Forever!!
I have become a Unicorn!
Tomorrow, I Journey to Mystic Dragon!
My 3rd and final year of Fyrescape, is my final Journey to EXCELLENCE!!!
Thank You so much to all who have read my blogs and kept up with the progress in my life! Now, join me on Fyrescape 2, starting tomorrow! Goodnight ;}
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Monday, April 27, 2015
Day Three Hundred Sixty Four - Overkill Day Thirty Six
Did my 3 miles today! Added some running in there too.
Came home and did my outside weights workout. My soreness is mostly gone and I really feel like my legs are getting stronger. I did 3 sets of deadlifts, followed by 2 sets of 100lb curls, and 2 sets of bench presses. Then I finished it off with jump rope. I have to be really careful when I do my jump rope. My right knee is bad so if I jump wrong or put my weight on it wrong, I'll feel this sharp pain in my knee and after that, it'll hurt a while. I have to be really careful with it. My right knee is just no good. I need to strengthen it up, but I don't know how. It's just really tough because it's my knee and I use it everyday lol.
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout, followed by my 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and my dumbbell workout! Oh man I am tired. I was sweatin so bad, it was insane, but my body feels great!! When I really push myself, I feel so accomplished and feel like I really got somewhere. Everyday I feel like my chest is getting leaner and my arms are growing muscles that I never thought I'd have. It's really cool! My neck and jawline look great. I can really see a difference in myself and I never want to lose that.
Tomorrow is that last day of Fyrescape....
Came home and did my outside weights workout. My soreness is mostly gone and I really feel like my legs are getting stronger. I did 3 sets of deadlifts, followed by 2 sets of 100lb curls, and 2 sets of bench presses. Then I finished it off with jump rope. I have to be really careful when I do my jump rope. My right knee is bad so if I jump wrong or put my weight on it wrong, I'll feel this sharp pain in my knee and after that, it'll hurt a while. I have to be really careful with it. My right knee is just no good. I need to strengthen it up, but I don't know how. It's just really tough because it's my knee and I use it everyday lol.
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout, followed by my 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and my dumbbell workout! Oh man I am tired. I was sweatin so bad, it was insane, but my body feels great!! When I really push myself, I feel so accomplished and feel like I really got somewhere. Everyday I feel like my chest is getting leaner and my arms are growing muscles that I never thought I'd have. It's really cool! My neck and jawline look great. I can really see a difference in myself and I never want to lose that.
Tomorrow is that last day of Fyrescape....
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Day Three Hundred Sixty Three - Overkill Day Thirty Five
Today was supposed to be my rest day, but since I took it already on Friday, I went ahead and continued my 'Overkill' today. I've only got 2 more days left in Fyrescape after today. Crazy!
Started the day off with my 3 miles!
Came home and did my Bowflex workout. 2 sets of every exercise. I'm feeling sore from yesterday. That's what happens when I don't do my weights workout for a while. When I pick it back up after a week or so, then I get sore. That's how I'm feeling today.
I followed my Bowflex with my Ab lounge workout, then I did 22 minutes on the exercise bike. I am feeling really great!
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout, followed by my crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finished it of with my dumbbell workout! Did serious Overkill today!
It feels really good after cutting those two from my life. Takes away some of the stress I had. I do feel bad that things had to end that way, but they brought it on. I don't want that kind of crap in my life. If it's not there supporting my life or making things better for me, I don't want it anywhere near me. That's how it's supposed to be. Don't ever let anyone bring you down. Don't stay loyal to ppl just because you want to do the "right thing" or because you don't want to hurt their feelings. No Way! Always do what is best for You in Your life. They have their own lives and they don't need yours to help them live theirs. Beware of ppl who use you. Some of them will hide behind a friendly face and actually claim to be your friend, but behind those smiles and sweet talk, they're sucking the life out of you. Don't ever let that happen. Fight until you can't fight anymore, then be fought for. If they're not willing to fight for you, then you need to realize that they weren't willing to give you what you gave them...then let them go! That's the brutal truth of it all.
Started the day off with my 3 miles!
Came home and did my Bowflex workout. 2 sets of every exercise. I'm feeling sore from yesterday. That's what happens when I don't do my weights workout for a while. When I pick it back up after a week or so, then I get sore. That's how I'm feeling today.
I followed my Bowflex with my Ab lounge workout, then I did 22 minutes on the exercise bike. I am feeling really great!
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout, followed by my crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finished it of with my dumbbell workout! Did serious Overkill today!
It feels really good after cutting those two from my life. Takes away some of the stress I had. I do feel bad that things had to end that way, but they brought it on. I don't want that kind of crap in my life. If it's not there supporting my life or making things better for me, I don't want it anywhere near me. That's how it's supposed to be. Don't ever let anyone bring you down. Don't stay loyal to ppl just because you want to do the "right thing" or because you don't want to hurt their feelings. No Way! Always do what is best for You in Your life. They have their own lives and they don't need yours to help them live theirs. Beware of ppl who use you. Some of them will hide behind a friendly face and actually claim to be your friend, but behind those smiles and sweet talk, they're sucking the life out of you. Don't ever let that happen. Fight until you can't fight anymore, then be fought for. If they're not willing to fight for you, then you need to realize that they weren't willing to give you what you gave them...then let them go! That's the brutal truth of it all.
Saturday, April 25, 2015
Day Three Hundred Sixty Two - Overkill Day Thirty Four
Did my 3 miles this morning!
Came back and finished it off with my outside weights workout. 3 sets of deadlifts, 2 sets of 100lb curls, 2 sets of bench pressing. Then some jump rope.
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout, followed by crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finally my dumbbell workout. My body feels amazing! Great to get back to all this once again.
I also did another thing today. I realized that I needed to cut some dead weight out of my life. I'm going to be that unicorn from now on! I'm not going to let ppl drag me down and treat me like shit. If they do, they don't belong in my world. I deleted Cornelia and Dyanna from my Facebook, and from every where else on the internet that they were connected to me. I just don't want that in my life anymore. Cornelia was never a friend. She was just an acquaintance. Months would go by before I heard from her. She never talked to me, never even took the time to say hi. Then we meet in person, she's just weird and then runs away from me without even saying goodbye. Now she's back to being distant again. Well screw that, she's GONE!!!
Dyanna, well that is a no brainer. I refuse to be her little toy to play with on the weekends. She obviously doesn't like me enough to acknowledge me in front of her friends on FB. She'd rather flirt with men from all over, then give up anything for one person. She ignored me all day today, as well. Didn't say a word except 'Like' my posts. She didn't say she was "sorry" for not taking me to the movie yesterday. Just went on with life like nothing was wrong. See that's the only type of women I meet these days. Ungrateful, selfish women. I'm just a big ego boost for them. NO MORE!!!
Now, they're both gone from my life. I'm sure they won't understand why I did what I did because they're always too concerned about themselves but I don't care. Those two women have done nothing but disrupt my life this whole month, causing me to lose my focus on everything. I'm done with being used for their purposes. This is My life and I decide how it is going to be run from now on. No more BS for me! I am Fyre and I will forever be my own unicorn!
Came back and finished it off with my outside weights workout. 3 sets of deadlifts, 2 sets of 100lb curls, 2 sets of bench pressing. Then some jump rope.
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout, followed by crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finally my dumbbell workout. My body feels amazing! Great to get back to all this once again.
I also did another thing today. I realized that I needed to cut some dead weight out of my life. I'm going to be that unicorn from now on! I'm not going to let ppl drag me down and treat me like shit. If they do, they don't belong in my world. I deleted Cornelia and Dyanna from my Facebook, and from every where else on the internet that they were connected to me. I just don't want that in my life anymore. Cornelia was never a friend. She was just an acquaintance. Months would go by before I heard from her. She never talked to me, never even took the time to say hi. Then we meet in person, she's just weird and then runs away from me without even saying goodbye. Now she's back to being distant again. Well screw that, she's GONE!!!
Dyanna, well that is a no brainer. I refuse to be her little toy to play with on the weekends. She obviously doesn't like me enough to acknowledge me in front of her friends on FB. She'd rather flirt with men from all over, then give up anything for one person. She ignored me all day today, as well. Didn't say a word except 'Like' my posts. She didn't say she was "sorry" for not taking me to the movie yesterday. Just went on with life like nothing was wrong. See that's the only type of women I meet these days. Ungrateful, selfish women. I'm just a big ego boost for them. NO MORE!!!
Now, they're both gone from my life. I'm sure they won't understand why I did what I did because they're always too concerned about themselves but I don't care. Those two women have done nothing but disrupt my life this whole month, causing me to lose my focus on everything. I'm done with being used for their purposes. This is My life and I decide how it is going to be run from now on. No more BS for me! I am Fyre and I will forever be my own unicorn!
Friday, April 24, 2015
Day Three Hundred Sixty One - REST DAY
Ok, I did not plan on this being a Rest Day, but it just turned out that way. I did not mention this in my blog yesterday, but Lisa's car broke down on her way to work yesterday afternoon. I checked it out and her timing belt broke :( Freakin SH&T!!!!! In other words, her car is DEAD!! Dammit. I was so pissed off. So that really set us back. I was messing with that thing all day yesterday, which is why I didn't do anymore exercise after my 3 miles. I swear, this month has been terrible. For one, I've been so distracted by Dyanna and my other friend, Cornelia. Both of which seem to not appreciate me at all. Dyanna is flirting with tons of guys on her FB page. Cornelia travels over here at the beginning of this month and acts weird, then won't even meet me by herself, then after we finally meet, she just gets distant. She's here the entire day after and doesn't leave until the following day. Not once does she call or text me to hang out or do anything with her, given that may have been the only time I ever get to see her. Nothing! Then she runs off back to Arizona and I don't hear from her at all. I write her on FB and she doesn't write back. Just presses the 'Like' button. It pisses me off. I thought she and I were friends...but I guess I was wrong. She doesn't give a shit about me. She only likes me when it's convenient for her. When she's going thru shit in her life, then all the sudden I'm the best friend. It's BS! What about my needs and my problems? Sux. Then, Dyanna won't even acknowledge me on her damn FB page. I take her out and spend all the damn money I have on her, and she just hides me on her fb page because she doesn't want all the guys she's flirting with to run away from her. How fudged up is that?! So screw it, I need to let both of these two go. They are doing nothing but disrupting my life and causing my focus to go to shit! And now, Lisa's car is out. Oh my gosh it's just so stressful right now.
So today, we paid bills then just went out and had some fun to get my mind off things. We watched 'Cinderella' then we ate at Fuddruckers afterwards. Yes, I treated myself out to a yummy hamburger because I felt I deserved it. Now the AWESOME thing about today, when Lees and I went to the restaurant, we saw my aunt and my cousin there. My aunt told me that I looked really good. I felt so great hearing that! I was so happy, knowing that all my hard work is paying off and being noticed. Back before mid January, I was just walking, but since then I've been doubling my workouts by doing weights outside and then Bowflex and DDP yoga. I started that in March and have been busting my ass since. I've done it throughout the month, but that whole thing with Cornelia and Dyanna has really cause me to lose my solid stride of doing it daily. Believe me, that's going to change!
Anyway, so the rest of the day was Awesome! I took Lisa to work. Dyanna and I were supposed to go to a movie, but she ignored me all day. Shocking! Yeah right, I'm pretty used to her weirdness by now. I'm sure she was too busy flirting with other guys to remember that we had a movie date. Or, she was expecting me to pay for it like always. Shit no, because technically she is the one who asked me because she brought it up. She doesn't want to pay and just be a cheapskate, fine! I don't give a crap anymore. I'm not even dating her and yet she expects me to do everything. It doesn't work that way, honey! At least not until AFTER we actually start dating, which we were not.
So yeah that was my day! It was a good day, honestly. I don't know what I'm going to do about Lisa's car. That is a pretty big problem, but I'm sure I'll come up with a solution in the coming days.
So today, we paid bills then just went out and had some fun to get my mind off things. We watched 'Cinderella' then we ate at Fuddruckers afterwards. Yes, I treated myself out to a yummy hamburger because I felt I deserved it. Now the AWESOME thing about today, when Lees and I went to the restaurant, we saw my aunt and my cousin there. My aunt told me that I looked really good. I felt so great hearing that! I was so happy, knowing that all my hard work is paying off and being noticed. Back before mid January, I was just walking, but since then I've been doubling my workouts by doing weights outside and then Bowflex and DDP yoga. I started that in March and have been busting my ass since. I've done it throughout the month, but that whole thing with Cornelia and Dyanna has really cause me to lose my solid stride of doing it daily. Believe me, that's going to change!
Anyway, so the rest of the day was Awesome! I took Lisa to work. Dyanna and I were supposed to go to a movie, but she ignored me all day. Shocking! Yeah right, I'm pretty used to her weirdness by now. I'm sure she was too busy flirting with other guys to remember that we had a movie date. Or, she was expecting me to pay for it like always. Shit no, because technically she is the one who asked me because she brought it up. She doesn't want to pay and just be a cheapskate, fine! I don't give a crap anymore. I'm not even dating her and yet she expects me to do everything. It doesn't work that way, honey! At least not until AFTER we actually start dating, which we were not.
So yeah that was my day! It was a good day, honestly. I don't know what I'm going to do about Lisa's car. That is a pretty big problem, but I'm sure I'll come up with a solution in the coming days.
Thursday, April 23, 2015
Day Three Hundred Sixty
Did 3 miles this morning!
Today I learned another really important thing that I'm going to apply to my life. As I've said, this thing I've been on all year that I call, Fyrescape, it's a Journey Back to Excellence. Not only is it a Journey to physical health, but mental health as well. Over the years I've had so many problems, mentally. I don't mean anything severe, but things like letting certain things get me down, being overly paranoid and letting that affect my life in a way that it becomes disruptive, causing me to lose my focus on things. That is what I mean by that. Back in 2003 I worked at Walmart. When I lost my job at the end of 2006, caused by the same exact guy who hated me and got me to quit in 2001, that really brought me down. I was so angry and defeated. Instead of getting back to my feet and getting back out there...I went into this self exile. I just stayed home in my apartment for years and did not do a damn thing. That's where most of my weight gain came from. I was not active. I stayed locked up in my home and didn't come out, unless it was to pick of Lisa from work or if we were going to do something in town. Then when our place got robbed, twice in 2 years (the second time being the worst one because they completely cleaned me out of all my expensive stuff and it happened in the middle of the day on a weekend, yet nobody saw anything "apparently") my anger just got worse. I let everything get to me. My weight increased and I began to try and hide myself by wearing a tshirt, sweater, and carrying a jacket over my shoulder. I was so scared of being seen, yet I don't know why. My mind was just so paranoid. So instead of exercising, which is what I should've done, I just fell more into my bad thoughts. Around 2010 I finally snapped out of it and decided to quit hiding, so I came out. I showed everyone who I really was and what I looked like. I started to exercise. Then, we moved out of the apartment in town and moved onto my land just outside of town. I moved my trailer, which my parents had given me, onto my land and fixed it up. For that first year, I spent it getting everything hooked up. I still hadn't gone back to work. I was still scared. Well I began to exercise off and on. I really thought I would've done great because over here there is so much privacy. Well apparently, I didn't! I ended up putting on more weight because after that first year, I noticed that the clothes that I was wearing at the apartment wouldn't fit me anymore. That made me even more depressed. Then I had so many bad experiences with women. One, a former teacher, who after meeting, called me "physically unattractive" and said many many bad things about me. She was someone I had a crush on since I was a kid and she wasn't even that attractive, but she tore me down bad and never talked to me again. That really hit me and made me worse, but honestly I think it was good that I was getting out there and trying, rather than hiding in my shell like I did all those years back at the apartment. All leading up to April 28, 2014 when I went to the doctors because of a lump in my stomach, then them telling me I weighed 360 pounds. Since that day, I started Fyrescape which is a Journey to Better Everything. Anyway, I've learned so much about everything: exercise, mentality, the things that bring me down, the things I've let get to me, my mental sensitivity, along with weight and how it fluctuates. It's been a great journey thus far!
The point of this is, today I was out on my walk and I realized that so many things have brought me down. I decided to be one way in my life from this point on, and that is to be unique. When I was in high school, I was never part of any clique. I did not have a certain crowd I ran with. Instead, I danced around everyone. I had friends from many different groups. I was my own person, on my own pane. That was what really made me stand out, I believe. I was nice to everyone and always kept my cool. I wasn't a troublemaker or someone who was rude to ppl. Over the years, I lost that part of myself and by that I mean, I felt I wasn't good enough for anything. Well that is not true and I know that now for sure. I've lost a lot of weight since last April, regardless of what that stupid scale says. My body feels great and I'm able to do things now that I never could before. I've also conquered all the craziness that goes on in my head. I don't let things get me down anymore. I'm no longer paranoid about everything. I still make mistakes though, I'm not perfect and I never will be, but I have the tools to be a unicorn. Something unique and that's how I'm going to live my life from now on. I want to do great things with my life, but things that I decide are great, not what the world or anyone wants me to do. Self ambitions and happiness, that's what I'm shooting for. Before I always wanted to please everyone. I would put off things for myself just because I didn't want to make anyone else angry or upset. There's nothing wrong with that, but it allows ppl to take advantage of you, which is what happened to me. My family does that and the women I've met have done it as well. It's not good to be that way. Be nice, courteous, but never weak. Stand up for yourself and do what is best for YOU! Never dull yourself down to please other ppl because then you're letting down the most important person, which is Yourself. That can cause all kinds of chaos in your life, as it did mine.
So from now on, I'm going to be that unicorn. Something rare and unique. Something that I've made and will continue to make myself into everyday, with God's help and blessings. Everything I am, I accredit God. He has taught me everything and showed me everything I need to know to make it in this life. All that I have learned during Fyrescape, was shown to me by Him. That is the most important thing that anyone who reads my blogs can get from them, to Always and Forever, trust in our Heavenly Father. Trust in God, everyday of your life!
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty Nine
Did my 3 miles this morning!
Came back and finally got in my Bowflex workout! Did 2 sets of every exercise. Then I did some work on the Ab Lounge, and finally finishing it off with 22 minutes on the exercise bike. I hit 22 minutes today!! That'll be my goal from now on.
I'm just glad and happy that throughout this entire year of Fyrescape, I never gave up! I was constantly out there workin hard. Regardless of whether I cut my walks down to only 3 miles between October and January. I still did it! I didn't quit. That is the important thing here. In just 6 days, my year of Fyrescape will be over. One whole year, I can't believe it. Amazing!
Came back and finally got in my Bowflex workout! Did 2 sets of every exercise. Then I did some work on the Ab Lounge, and finally finishing it off with 22 minutes on the exercise bike. I hit 22 minutes today!! That'll be my goal from now on.
I'm just glad and happy that throughout this entire year of Fyrescape, I never gave up! I was constantly out there workin hard. Regardless of whether I cut my walks down to only 3 miles between October and January. I still did it! I didn't quit. That is the important thing here. In just 6 days, my year of Fyrescape will be over. One whole year, I can't believe it. Amazing!
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty Eight
Did my 3 miles this morning!
Came back and did my outside weights workout.
I skipped my evening workout because we had to go vote. Afterwards, Lees and I used some of our last bit of money that we scrounged together and had a great evening!! I was so bored today. We were gonna go watch a movie, but instead, Lisa bought me a BluRay of TAK3N. So Awesome, then we got some food and came home. It was a really Awesome evening! Sure made things worthwhile. I was looking at "other" ppl on my FB page and they're apparently hanging out doing their own thing. Yes by this I mean, Dyanna. I swear, she never invites me out. It's always me doing everything.
Came back and did my outside weights workout.
I skipped my evening workout because we had to go vote. Afterwards, Lees and I used some of our last bit of money that we scrounged together and had a great evening!! I was so bored today. We were gonna go watch a movie, but instead, Lisa bought me a BluRay of TAK3N. So Awesome, then we got some food and came home. It was a really Awesome evening! Sure made things worthwhile. I was looking at "other" ppl on my FB page and they're apparently hanging out doing their own thing. Yes by this I mean, Dyanna. I swear, she never invites me out. It's always me doing everything.
Monday, April 20, 2015
Day Three Hunded Fifty Seven - Overkill Day Thirty Three
Did 3 miles this morning!
Today was kind of an awakening, not for myself, but for Lisa. Lately she's been really down about her weight. She's been walking 3 miles with me for the past month now. She checked her weight a few days back and she'd only lost a pound. She depressed about that. I told her that she needs to do more. In fact, I've been telling her that for a while now. The thing with Lees is that she is really lazy! She'll only do something if I'm doing it. She will not do anything on her own. I have been trying to get her to pick back up on DDP yoga for weeks now, but she just won't get back into it. Anyway, we had a long talk this morning and I told her everything I could. She finally said that she'll do it for me. I told her just to keep it up. The thing with Lisa is that she may be struggling with her weight but let me tell you, that girl can run. She can outrun anyone! You wouldn't think it by looking at her, but she can run really great! She can run two miles nonstop. Freakin crap I can't even do that and I've been exercising since last April. She has so much potential to be a great runner and she's better than I am at DDP yoga, mainly because she's done it longer than I have. I just barely started in March. She's been doing it off and on the last 3 years. But she just quit. The thing with her is she wants it all right now. She doesn't want to have to put in the work. She'll workout really good for about a month, then she'll quit. She just gets lazy, then she gets angry, then she won't do anything anymore. That is her problem. I get so aggravated with her attitude towards herself sometimes. Anyway, that's what I did today. I talked with her and I hope I got her out of the funk she was in.
I did some of a Bowflex workout. I was really distracted because while I was doing it, Lisa called H&R Block because she had some concerns on her tax refund. Apparently, she may not be getting that refund like she had wanted/expected. We're thinking that they're going to take that left over tax refund and apply it to her state taxes, which she is behind on :'( Oh man, that really brought us down, especially her. She was so happy when she surprised me last night with the news she was getting money back. She wanted to buy me things and was so excited. Now this shit comes up today and that really blew us both out of the sky. I was too depressed, so I didn't finish my morning workout. I just changed, then we hung out in the living room and watched some movies while she did some studying for her classes. Very big downer there :(
Finished my gallon of water today!
Did my DDP yoga workout tonight, followed by my 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups and finally my dumbbell workout! I feel great and I'm happy I did the work today. The days seem to be getting better and my focus is coming back. Tomorrow, I'm back at it again ;}
Today was kind of an awakening, not for myself, but for Lisa. Lately she's been really down about her weight. She's been walking 3 miles with me for the past month now. She checked her weight a few days back and she'd only lost a pound. She depressed about that. I told her that she needs to do more. In fact, I've been telling her that for a while now. The thing with Lees is that she is really lazy! She'll only do something if I'm doing it. She will not do anything on her own. I have been trying to get her to pick back up on DDP yoga for weeks now, but she just won't get back into it. Anyway, we had a long talk this morning and I told her everything I could. She finally said that she'll do it for me. I told her just to keep it up. The thing with Lisa is that she may be struggling with her weight but let me tell you, that girl can run. She can outrun anyone! You wouldn't think it by looking at her, but she can run really great! She can run two miles nonstop. Freakin crap I can't even do that and I've been exercising since last April. She has so much potential to be a great runner and she's better than I am at DDP yoga, mainly because she's done it longer than I have. I just barely started in March. She's been doing it off and on the last 3 years. But she just quit. The thing with her is she wants it all right now. She doesn't want to have to put in the work. She'll workout really good for about a month, then she'll quit. She just gets lazy, then she gets angry, then she won't do anything anymore. That is her problem. I get so aggravated with her attitude towards herself sometimes. Anyway, that's what I did today. I talked with her and I hope I got her out of the funk she was in.
I did some of a Bowflex workout. I was really distracted because while I was doing it, Lisa called H&R Block because she had some concerns on her tax refund. Apparently, she may not be getting that refund like she had wanted/expected. We're thinking that they're going to take that left over tax refund and apply it to her state taxes, which she is behind on :'( Oh man, that really brought us down, especially her. She was so happy when she surprised me last night with the news she was getting money back. She wanted to buy me things and was so excited. Now this shit comes up today and that really blew us both out of the sky. I was too depressed, so I didn't finish my morning workout. I just changed, then we hung out in the living room and watched some movies while she did some studying for her classes. Very big downer there :(
Finished my gallon of water today!
Did my DDP yoga workout tonight, followed by my 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups and finally my dumbbell workout! I feel great and I'm happy I did the work today. The days seem to be getting better and my focus is coming back. Tomorrow, I'm back at it again ;}
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty Six - REST DAY
Well today's a Rest Day finally!
Seems I've been going on and off my exercising the last two weeks. I have been so unfocused. The things I'm going thru personally have really taken it's toll on my workouts. I mean, when you have so much stress and stuff on your mind, uncertainty and anger, it's really hard to workout. I know they say that exercise relieves stress. I know that it does, but I've just been to angry and stressed out to get myself to actually do the workouts. That's the problem with me.
Well today I think I've settled some problems going on. I don't want to be someone who lets things get to them so bad to where they just fall and can't get back up. I'm just glad that even though these past two weeks I haven't kept up my workouts consistently as I had been all year, I'm still happy that I kept them up at least. Meaning, I didn't just quit and not do anything. That's what I'm proud of. So my mind was lost in a haze, but it kept telling my body "hey, I may not be in my game right now, but you need to get out there and do what you gotta do" so my body agreed and did it. That's something I'm proud of. Well, tomorrow I'm really going to try to step it back up. It took me a while, but I finally found myself today. It was pretty tough, but I can finally let go of all the BS that was keeping me down. I just have to know that no matter what, I'll always be me and I need to keep myself going for ME and for my future family, and for the family I have now, which is Lees and the animals.
So this day was spent really getting back to myself. Lisa surprised me with the fact that she'll be getting a tax refund, which she hadn't gotten in years due to us being behind every year, but the fact that she's been in school all year long as well as working, that really helped her in tax time. So that was a very happy surprise. She's excited and wants to buy certain things for me, which I think is really sweet. Whenever she gets money, she wants to spend it on me. She's such a wonderful best friend and I'm so thankful to God everyday that He blessed me with her friendship. It's Awesome!
Another great thing that happened today, I made up with Dyanna. We texted each other all afternoon talking about things from a long time ago. Apparently I had talked with her once before about 7 years ago. I found some old emails from a woman named Dyanna. I was not sure if that was her, so today I asked her and she said yes. She remembered everything! We really opened up a new road in our friendship, it seemed. I felt so much closer to her today because we actually have history now lol. Very cool! We talked about a lot of things and I added her back to my FB page. Now, I can truly build on our friendship. It's a really good feeling!
I decided that on my Rest Days, I'm not going to pressure myself to drink a gallon of water. If I do, then that's cool. If I don't, well that's cool also. Today, I did not drink ANY water. Instead, I drank milk and a diet cherry coke...omg sooo good. Like I've complained about in the last week, I feel like all I drink is water and nothing else, so to have something else with taste, oh man, that was Awesome! I'm going to be downing my gallon of water during the week, though because that really does help with my workouts. Keeps my body hydrated and my body actually really craves the water. If I don't drink enough of it now, my throat and body feels really dry.
Great day today!
Seems I've been going on and off my exercising the last two weeks. I have been so unfocused. The things I'm going thru personally have really taken it's toll on my workouts. I mean, when you have so much stress and stuff on your mind, uncertainty and anger, it's really hard to workout. I know they say that exercise relieves stress. I know that it does, but I've just been to angry and stressed out to get myself to actually do the workouts. That's the problem with me.
Well today I think I've settled some problems going on. I don't want to be someone who lets things get to them so bad to where they just fall and can't get back up. I'm just glad that even though these past two weeks I haven't kept up my workouts consistently as I had been all year, I'm still happy that I kept them up at least. Meaning, I didn't just quit and not do anything. That's what I'm proud of. So my mind was lost in a haze, but it kept telling my body "hey, I may not be in my game right now, but you need to get out there and do what you gotta do" so my body agreed and did it. That's something I'm proud of. Well, tomorrow I'm really going to try to step it back up. It took me a while, but I finally found myself today. It was pretty tough, but I can finally let go of all the BS that was keeping me down. I just have to know that no matter what, I'll always be me and I need to keep myself going for ME and for my future family, and for the family I have now, which is Lees and the animals.
So this day was spent really getting back to myself. Lisa surprised me with the fact that she'll be getting a tax refund, which she hadn't gotten in years due to us being behind every year, but the fact that she's been in school all year long as well as working, that really helped her in tax time. So that was a very happy surprise. She's excited and wants to buy certain things for me, which I think is really sweet. Whenever she gets money, she wants to spend it on me. She's such a wonderful best friend and I'm so thankful to God everyday that He blessed me with her friendship. It's Awesome!
Another great thing that happened today, I made up with Dyanna. We texted each other all afternoon talking about things from a long time ago. Apparently I had talked with her once before about 7 years ago. I found some old emails from a woman named Dyanna. I was not sure if that was her, so today I asked her and she said yes. She remembered everything! We really opened up a new road in our friendship, it seemed. I felt so much closer to her today because we actually have history now lol. Very cool! We talked about a lot of things and I added her back to my FB page. Now, I can truly build on our friendship. It's a really good feeling!
I decided that on my Rest Days, I'm not going to pressure myself to drink a gallon of water. If I do, then that's cool. If I don't, well that's cool also. Today, I did not drink ANY water. Instead, I drank milk and a diet cherry coke...omg sooo good. Like I've complained about in the last week, I feel like all I drink is water and nothing else, so to have something else with taste, oh man, that was Awesome! I'm going to be downing my gallon of water during the week, though because that really does help with my workouts. Keeps my body hydrated and my body actually really craves the water. If I don't drink enough of it now, my throat and body feels really dry.
Great day today!
Saturday, April 18, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty Five - Overkill Day Thirty Two
Wow it was cold today! It actually snowed last night. I mean the last few weeks, it has been HOT outside. Then, this cold front really hit us this past week so it's been pretty nippy out there. All came down to last night and it actually snowed lol. Crazy!
Did 3 miles this morning with Lisa. It was kind of a slow walk because the road was really muddy. It was a great warm up though.
When I got back, I did my Bowflex workout, followed by the Ab lounge and then I did 21 minutes on the exercise bike once again. It was Awesome!!
Finished my gallon of water today.
I was going to do my evening workout, but Lisa came home early so I didn't get to it. I was tired anyway, so I didn't even bother. Great day though, better than yesterday!
Did 3 miles this morning with Lisa. It was kind of a slow walk because the road was really muddy. It was a great warm up though.
When I got back, I did my Bowflex workout, followed by the Ab lounge and then I did 21 minutes on the exercise bike once again. It was Awesome!!
Finished my gallon of water today.
I was going to do my evening workout, but Lisa came home early so I didn't get to it. I was tired anyway, so I didn't even bother. Great day though, better than yesterday!
Friday, April 17, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty Four
Did 3 miles this morning!
That was my exercise today. I wanted to do more...but this whole Dyanna situation really took a wrong turn today so it pulled me out of the mood. I went at it alone this morning, since Lisa went with her family to breakfast. I was going to do my Bowflex workout this morning, but when I finally got to it, Lisa came home and we started talking, then she cooked me some food and after that, I just did not feel like getting back to the grind. I am so unfocused today!
I just went about my day and tried getting back to myself once again. I didn't want this shit dragging me down anymore, dammit. So I did not do anymore working out today. Just spent the day in relaxation and eased my mind. I watched IMPACTwrestling tonight and that was Awesome! That show always makes me smile and feel great watching it. The Best wrestling show on the planet. So that made my day brighter.
Now, I'm just going to relax, fall into a movie and go to sleep. Been a mentally tough day for me!
That was my exercise today. I wanted to do more...but this whole Dyanna situation really took a wrong turn today so it pulled me out of the mood. I went at it alone this morning, since Lisa went with her family to breakfast. I was going to do my Bowflex workout this morning, but when I finally got to it, Lisa came home and we started talking, then she cooked me some food and after that, I just did not feel like getting back to the grind. I am so unfocused today!
I just went about my day and tried getting back to myself once again. I didn't want this shit dragging me down anymore, dammit. So I did not do anymore working out today. Just spent the day in relaxation and eased my mind. I watched IMPACTwrestling tonight and that was Awesome! That show always makes me smile and feel great watching it. The Best wrestling show on the planet. So that made my day brighter.
Now, I'm just going to relax, fall into a movie and go to sleep. Been a mentally tough day for me!
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty Three - Overkill Day Thirty One
Had a great surprise before going to bed last night! Just before I did, Lisa came running into my room and she tells me my grandkiddies are here!!!
My cat, Rayne, has been pregnant. She got pregnant by that big ugly white cat that I've been trying to catch. I saw him attacking her one day and chasing her around, that's when we put her inside. She's been living in my back bathroom since then. We let her out into the house from time to time to get exercise, but I haven't let her outside since. Anyway, last night she had my grandkiddies :D Her dad is my cat, Sebastian. Now Sebastian, when he was born, I raised him from a 2 day old kitten. All the kittens from the litter he was in, they all died. I don't know what happened to his mom, Sage. She just disappeared like that very same night she had them. So Sebastian was without a mom 2 days after his birth and he was the only one to survive. I did not know how we were going to raise him because I had never raised a kitten that young before....but I did it ;} I read up online about it and I learned how to do it. He was so small and his eyes were completely shut. I remember he was so tiny. Anyway, I got a little milk bottle and I bought kitty formula. I had to feed him 5 times per day. Then I had to burp him after every feeding. I had to keep him warm all the time because kittens will freeze really easily. Kittens also can't go to the bathroom on their own. The momma cat has to lick their bottoms to get them to pee. I had to get a warm damp rag and wipe him all the time so he would go to the bathroom. When his eyes finally opened, he looked at me and he has trusted me every since. He's my little boy, my baby. I had to teach him how to use his litter box and I had to continue to feed him. Lisa was the one who weaned him from the bottle. She taught him to eat out of the bowl. I raised him that way. Well now he's a huge overgrown cat lol. I love him so much! He's really tough. He's always fighting that big white cat that comes around and he kicks it's butt really bad. He's not scared of anything. He's so tough! He's even mean to Cody when he thinks Cody is being too rough with me out there during our playtime. He's a very protective cat. Right now, he's sitting outside lounging on the steps of my porch. Anyway, Rayne is his daughter. She's not even a full year old yet. She won't be until later on this month and she already has kittens of her own. I'm just so glad those kittens have their mom. Now she can raise them and turn them into good cats.
There are 4 kittens and they're all white...ugh, just like their ugly dad. I don't like that cat. He comes around here and eats all the cats food, that's why Sebastian hates him. I've been trying to catch that damn thing forever now but soon as he seems me, he runs off back to his home. I haven't seen him around here in a while, but my grandma says she sees it all the time in the mornings.
So anyway, that was my good news for the day! I was so happy. I did 3 miles this morning! Then when I got back, I did my outside weights workout. I did 3 sets of each this time. 100lb curls, deadlifts, bench pressing, and I finished off with some jump rope. I felt great!
I finished my gallon of water today again!
Did my evening workout tonight of DDP yoga, followed by 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups and finally my dumbbell workout. My body feels so energized!! It's great to finally be able to breathe without having to worry about all the BS.
My cat, Rayne, has been pregnant. She got pregnant by that big ugly white cat that I've been trying to catch. I saw him attacking her one day and chasing her around, that's when we put her inside. She's been living in my back bathroom since then. We let her out into the house from time to time to get exercise, but I haven't let her outside since. Anyway, last night she had my grandkiddies :D Her dad is my cat, Sebastian. Now Sebastian, when he was born, I raised him from a 2 day old kitten. All the kittens from the litter he was in, they all died. I don't know what happened to his mom, Sage. She just disappeared like that very same night she had them. So Sebastian was without a mom 2 days after his birth and he was the only one to survive. I did not know how we were going to raise him because I had never raised a kitten that young before....but I did it ;} I read up online about it and I learned how to do it. He was so small and his eyes were completely shut. I remember he was so tiny. Anyway, I got a little milk bottle and I bought kitty formula. I had to feed him 5 times per day. Then I had to burp him after every feeding. I had to keep him warm all the time because kittens will freeze really easily. Kittens also can't go to the bathroom on their own. The momma cat has to lick their bottoms to get them to pee. I had to get a warm damp rag and wipe him all the time so he would go to the bathroom. When his eyes finally opened, he looked at me and he has trusted me every since. He's my little boy, my baby. I had to teach him how to use his litter box and I had to continue to feed him. Lisa was the one who weaned him from the bottle. She taught him to eat out of the bowl. I raised him that way. Well now he's a huge overgrown cat lol. I love him so much! He's really tough. He's always fighting that big white cat that comes around and he kicks it's butt really bad. He's not scared of anything. He's so tough! He's even mean to Cody when he thinks Cody is being too rough with me out there during our playtime. He's a very protective cat. Right now, he's sitting outside lounging on the steps of my porch. Anyway, Rayne is his daughter. She's not even a full year old yet. She won't be until later on this month and she already has kittens of her own. I'm just so glad those kittens have their mom. Now she can raise them and turn them into good cats.
There are 4 kittens and they're all white...ugh, just like their ugly dad. I don't like that cat. He comes around here and eats all the cats food, that's why Sebastian hates him. I've been trying to catch that damn thing forever now but soon as he seems me, he runs off back to his home. I haven't seen him around here in a while, but my grandma says she sees it all the time in the mornings.
So anyway, that was my good news for the day! I was so happy. I did 3 miles this morning! Then when I got back, I did my outside weights workout. I did 3 sets of each this time. 100lb curls, deadlifts, bench pressing, and I finished off with some jump rope. I felt great!
I finished my gallon of water today again!
Did my evening workout tonight of DDP yoga, followed by 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups and finally my dumbbell workout. My body feels so energized!! It's great to finally be able to breathe without having to worry about all the BS.
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty Two - Overkill Day Thirty
Did a strong 3 miles this morning!
My walk was kinda halted today. I finished it pretty strong, but on the way I got stopped by these two drunks in a white vehicle. UGH I FUCKING HATE DRUNKS!!!!!!!!! This is why I don't drink, because I don't wanna look as pathetic as they did. They had me there talking and talking. Well, they were talking, I just stood there trying to be courteous and listen to their BS. They go on and on about a bunch of jibberish. They apparently knew both my mom and dad because they went to school with them. One guy also started asking about my aunt. I'm guessing he had a thing for her back then and to this day hasn't let it go. Then they wanted my phone number so they could give me a job LOL. Yeah right, these losers probably wouldn't even know who they hell the number belonged to. Still they were persistent, so I gave them some crap number to a ghost out there in the world somewhere. Finally, I told them I needed to go or my dogs would scratch the heck out of their ride. Oh man they stunk like alcohol really bad and they were boozing up while they were talking to me. One guy tried getting me to drink, but I told them NO and that I don't drink. I made that really clear and they didn't ask anymore. Anyway, I finally left and finished out my walk. Freakin pisses me off when my momentum gets stopped by bullshit like that! I am NOT out there to socialize, I'm out there to work my ass for my health.
Lisa had her Nursing Entrance exam today. She had to study so she didn't come with me on the walk. She stayed home and got ready. When I got back, I saw her off, then I did my Bowflex workout. I did 2 to 3 sets of every exercise. Then, I did 2 sets of 15 reps on the Ab lounge, and finally I did the exercise bike for 21 minutes this time. I felt Amazing!!
That was my exercise today. I didn't do the evening workout because I needed to try and get Lisa's mind off things. She failed her entrance exam. She was just not focused. She hasn't been focused on things either. She's been dealing with crap at her work and I'm sure the things I had been going thru the last couple weeks have been eating at her as well because I was always talking about it. So we went up to the casino....BIG MISTAKE!! Yup, I was not feeling good this evening. I felt so pissed off, mainly because some of my clothes I believe shrunk. We been going to this new laundry because the regular place we had been going to for over 10 years, that one closed down for some unknown reason, so we had to find a new place. Well I don't know what the hell is going on, but my clothes have shrunk since washing them there. Some of my tshirts were smaller. At first I really thought I was putting on weight and that was another thing that has been depressing me and adding to my shit going on in my head. Anyway, today before we went up to the casino, I tried on these sweaters again. These are the same sweaters I wore back in December when we went to Albuquerque. My favorite was the black one. I wrote about it in one of the blogs last year. I told how I had it in my closet forever and how it used to be really tight and couldn't fit, then how I tried it on last November and it fit me really great and it was comfortable. Well that same sweater, I tried it on about two weeks ago, that sweater along with two other sweaters I bought in December. They still fit me, but they were kinda snug. I freaked out! I thought right away that I was putting on weight, but to test it, I went and tried on this vest I have. This vest is what I measured myself with. Before Fyrescape started, this vest was really small on me and couldn't even close in the front. Well after working my ass off, last October, I realized that not only could that vest close, but I could zip it up in front. That made me sooo proud. Well that vest is just in my closet and hasn't been moved or washed since then. Anyway, I took it out and tried it on. Still fits just the way it did and it still zips up. That's how I knew I wasn't gaining weight. Not only that, but there are these two long sleeve shirts. Back in January, I tried on this black one and it was kinda tight. I was embarrassed of wearing it, but I did. Well, now I can wear that same shirt and it's actually loose and baggy. Both that one and the red one. They're both baggy on me. I've been feeling my stomach getting smaller. Sure as heck wasn't getting bigger, not with all the workouts I've been doing the whole month of March and now throughout April. No way no how! Anyway, that's how I figured that my clothes were shrinking. Another reason is that I have this really nice brown tshirt that I love. The color was really nice, just this really sharp dark brown color. Well now, since washing at that laundry, the color is kinda faded now. It's brown but has a haze to it. That made me so mad! Only hot water, or a hot dryer does that kinda crap. Now that shirt is ruined! So that's what I've been dealing with.
I tried on those sweaters again before going up to the casino and they still felt snug. I tried stretching them out, but no matter what I did, they still felt snug and even though I believe they shrunk, my crazy paranoid mind made me think I just put on a crapload of weight and my stomach grew bigger. So the whole evening I was depressed and angry. Lisa was mad too because she failed her test. Well, it was the absolute worst time to go to that damn casino, but I did anyway thinking that I would win and that would make us both feel better. I lost $40 :( Yup, so that twenty from yesterday, along with the forty from today equals up to sixty bucks. I once again lost $60 to that fuckin casino. This makes six weeks in a row that I lost sixty dollars. I can't believe it!!! I am so done. I am not winning shit at that damn place. I'm just feeding those damn machines. Here the other day, someone up there won a jackpot of over $530,000 on one of the machines. Can you believe that?! Omg I just don't see how. Here every damn time I go up there, I don't win shit. So I'm done! I'm going to make my money the old fashion way and work for it. I'm sick of going up there and leaving disappointed. I'm so done!
So afterwards, we left and went into town and spent the last bit on money I had on some supper, then we came home, ate and now I'm going to bed. This day has just been CURSED. That's how I described it. Lisa failed her test (but she can take it again in a month), my walk this morning got interrupted by those drunks earlier, and I lost all the money I had to that damn casino. So screw it, I'm done for the day. Such a TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO GOOD, VERY BAD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
My walk was kinda halted today. I finished it pretty strong, but on the way I got stopped by these two drunks in a white vehicle. UGH I FUCKING HATE DRUNKS!!!!!!!!! This is why I don't drink, because I don't wanna look as pathetic as they did. They had me there talking and talking. Well, they were talking, I just stood there trying to be courteous and listen to their BS. They go on and on about a bunch of jibberish. They apparently knew both my mom and dad because they went to school with them. One guy also started asking about my aunt. I'm guessing he had a thing for her back then and to this day hasn't let it go. Then they wanted my phone number so they could give me a job LOL. Yeah right, these losers probably wouldn't even know who they hell the number belonged to. Still they were persistent, so I gave them some crap number to a ghost out there in the world somewhere. Finally, I told them I needed to go or my dogs would scratch the heck out of their ride. Oh man they stunk like alcohol really bad and they were boozing up while they were talking to me. One guy tried getting me to drink, but I told them NO and that I don't drink. I made that really clear and they didn't ask anymore. Anyway, I finally left and finished out my walk. Freakin pisses me off when my momentum gets stopped by bullshit like that! I am NOT out there to socialize, I'm out there to work my ass for my health.
Lisa had her Nursing Entrance exam today. She had to study so she didn't come with me on the walk. She stayed home and got ready. When I got back, I saw her off, then I did my Bowflex workout. I did 2 to 3 sets of every exercise. Then, I did 2 sets of 15 reps on the Ab lounge, and finally I did the exercise bike for 21 minutes this time. I felt Amazing!!
That was my exercise today. I didn't do the evening workout because I needed to try and get Lisa's mind off things. She failed her entrance exam. She was just not focused. She hasn't been focused on things either. She's been dealing with crap at her work and I'm sure the things I had been going thru the last couple weeks have been eating at her as well because I was always talking about it. So we went up to the casino....BIG MISTAKE!! Yup, I was not feeling good this evening. I felt so pissed off, mainly because some of my clothes I believe shrunk. We been going to this new laundry because the regular place we had been going to for over 10 years, that one closed down for some unknown reason, so we had to find a new place. Well I don't know what the hell is going on, but my clothes have shrunk since washing them there. Some of my tshirts were smaller. At first I really thought I was putting on weight and that was another thing that has been depressing me and adding to my shit going on in my head. Anyway, today before we went up to the casino, I tried on these sweaters again. These are the same sweaters I wore back in December when we went to Albuquerque. My favorite was the black one. I wrote about it in one of the blogs last year. I told how I had it in my closet forever and how it used to be really tight and couldn't fit, then how I tried it on last November and it fit me really great and it was comfortable. Well that same sweater, I tried it on about two weeks ago, that sweater along with two other sweaters I bought in December. They still fit me, but they were kinda snug. I freaked out! I thought right away that I was putting on weight, but to test it, I went and tried on this vest I have. This vest is what I measured myself with. Before Fyrescape started, this vest was really small on me and couldn't even close in the front. Well after working my ass off, last October, I realized that not only could that vest close, but I could zip it up in front. That made me sooo proud. Well that vest is just in my closet and hasn't been moved or washed since then. Anyway, I took it out and tried it on. Still fits just the way it did and it still zips up. That's how I knew I wasn't gaining weight. Not only that, but there are these two long sleeve shirts. Back in January, I tried on this black one and it was kinda tight. I was embarrassed of wearing it, but I did. Well, now I can wear that same shirt and it's actually loose and baggy. Both that one and the red one. They're both baggy on me. I've been feeling my stomach getting smaller. Sure as heck wasn't getting bigger, not with all the workouts I've been doing the whole month of March and now throughout April. No way no how! Anyway, that's how I figured that my clothes were shrinking. Another reason is that I have this really nice brown tshirt that I love. The color was really nice, just this really sharp dark brown color. Well now, since washing at that laundry, the color is kinda faded now. It's brown but has a haze to it. That made me so mad! Only hot water, or a hot dryer does that kinda crap. Now that shirt is ruined! So that's what I've been dealing with.
I tried on those sweaters again before going up to the casino and they still felt snug. I tried stretching them out, but no matter what I did, they still felt snug and even though I believe they shrunk, my crazy paranoid mind made me think I just put on a crapload of weight and my stomach grew bigger. So the whole evening I was depressed and angry. Lisa was mad too because she failed her test. Well, it was the absolute worst time to go to that damn casino, but I did anyway thinking that I would win and that would make us both feel better. I lost $40 :( Yup, so that twenty from yesterday, along with the forty from today equals up to sixty bucks. I once again lost $60 to that fuckin casino. This makes six weeks in a row that I lost sixty dollars. I can't believe it!!! I am so done. I am not winning shit at that damn place. I'm just feeding those damn machines. Here the other day, someone up there won a jackpot of over $530,000 on one of the machines. Can you believe that?! Omg I just don't see how. Here every damn time I go up there, I don't win shit. So I'm done! I'm going to make my money the old fashion way and work for it. I'm sick of going up there and leaving disappointed. I'm so done!
So afterwards, we left and went into town and spent the last bit on money I had on some supper, then we came home, ate and now I'm going to bed. This day has just been CURSED. That's how I described it. Lisa failed her test (but she can take it again in a month), my walk this morning got interrupted by those drunks earlier, and I lost all the money I had to that damn casino. So screw it, I'm done for the day. Such a TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO GOOD, VERY BAD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty One - Overkill Day Twenty Nine
Did 3 miles this morning!
Today, something really good happened. I had a long talk with Lisa during our walk about the things that have been bothering me. She got me to remember a time when I had no limits. A time when I did things without a care in the world. Where I was my own person and did whatever I wanted, said whatever I wanted, but always kept it level, never going overboard. That was who I always had been. Back when we got our new pastor at our church, and he added himself to my facebook page, I had to practically cut that old me out and turn into this new "filtered" me. I used to talk really great, carry on these sexy conversations with women. Comment on women's pictures, but not in a perverted way, but a way that made them really want to know who I was. That's how I became friends with models. I had a way with my words that just captivated them. I wasn't worried about who was looking or who was reading, or what ppl would think. I just did what I did because that's who I was. Anyway, when the pastor was added to my facebook, I had to stop doing that...well because he was a pastor. I didn't want him seeing my posts to women and comments, because you know on FB you have no damn privacy. They plaster everything you do and say all over everyone's News Feed. Anyway, even though he's not on my page anymore due to all the stuff that happened with him and our church, I never reverted back to being who I was. I just stayed that way. That actually hurt me because it made me more vulnerable to feelings, which is what I've been fighting with. When Cornelia came over here and I met her, nothing happened and she just ran away back home. That really hurt me. Then this stuff with Dyanna, how she seems to not really care about me or anything else, and is so busy trying to keep attention with all the other guys on her fb page, that also hurt me. I was just letting myself get hurt by these things and it was screwing with my focus and really bringing me down. Well that is what Lisa reminded me of. So when we got home and talked more about it, I felt AMAZING! I remembered who I used to be and realized that I hadn't been that person in a long time now. That finally got me out of it all. This is what FYRESCAPE is all about. It's not just about physical health, it's about mental health as well. Becoming better in every way! That is why I entitled this blog with the "Overkill" logo as well, because that is truly what I did. To celebrate, the rest of the day was to just having fun! I took Lisa to town and we bought some hamburgers at Lotaburger. OMG it was soooooo good!!!! That was literally my first hamburger in Who Knows how long. Oh man it was good and soo tasty!! Then, I bought me a movie at Hastings. A scary one that I'd been waiting for since last year, called "The Babadook." After that we came home and Lisa went to class. I changed things on my FB page and started posting like I used to, no longer letting things get to me like they had been. I felt so great and so refreshed! I'm finally back to who I was!!! Finally.
While Lisa was at class, I watched 'Fast Five'. I also planted another tree outside, one that my grandpa and grandma gave me. It's supposed to be a pretty tree that has flowers on it. Apparently it won't bloom until around July, but it blooms all the way into fall, so it's supposed to be pretty nice. I planted it in a good spot. It was so nice outside too because this afternoon it got cloudy and really cool outside. It's been hot lately, so this coolness was great. My dogs loved it. I played with Cody out there. I was whacking this rubber toy so he could fetch it. It was so funny, I hit that thing perfectly to where when Jayde was running by (she's a little Chihuahua) it slammed right into her side, knocking her over to where she tumbled hahaha. That was so cute! It didn't hurt her, just knocked her off her feet while she was running over to Lisa's car as she pulled into the driveway. It was funny!
Afterwards, we watched 'The Babadook'. Oh man, that movie was/is CREEPY!! I really enjoyed it. I'm not in the business of buying movies before I've actually seen them, but this one I had a lot of faith in that it was going to be good and I was right! Definitely not a waste of money. It got me scared! I would recommend it to anyone!
Finished off the day by going up to the casino. I lost $20. Almost lost 40, but I got twenty of it back, then we left. I wasn't about to put more money back into that bitch casino. Oh man, really sad thing was that we didn't get there until late. We left, it was almost 11pm. There was this old grandma there. She was so old and so tired looking. Her dumbass stupid ungrateful shit kids or grandkids had this poor old woman there and while they left her sitting at a slot machine, which she didn't even know how to play, they took her money and ran off to play the slots. Didn't look like any of them were even winning so they kept coming back to her and she would give them more money, then they'd all run off and leave her there. She looked like she didn't even know how to play or what to do. Lisa and I felt so bad for her. She was just staring over at us while we played. She had a walker and everything. She was so old. I swear, that woman should have been home in bed sleeping, not at the casino. I mean, it was freakin 10:45 at night, why the hell would you bring you poor old grandma to the casino. Omg that made both Lisa and I really mad. On our way home, Lisa just started crying. She felt so bad about how that lady was treated by her stupid grandkids or whoever they were. She felt really bad and just broke down. She said she would never treat her grandma that way. Neither of us would. You need to have respect for your grandparents. It's disgusting how some ppl treat old ppl just because they get money and these young ppl are too damn lazy to go out and get a job, they just take from their grandma's and grandpa's and go off spending their money. That pisses me off!!!
RESPECT YOUR GRANDPARENTS, PARENTS, AND ALL THOSE WHO HAVE EVER HELPED YOU OR SUPPORTED YOU! BE THE KIND OF PERSON YOU WOULD TELL OTHER PEOPLE ABOUT IN PRAISE. NEVER NEGLECT OR STEAL.
Today, something really good happened. I had a long talk with Lisa during our walk about the things that have been bothering me. She got me to remember a time when I had no limits. A time when I did things without a care in the world. Where I was my own person and did whatever I wanted, said whatever I wanted, but always kept it level, never going overboard. That was who I always had been. Back when we got our new pastor at our church, and he added himself to my facebook page, I had to practically cut that old me out and turn into this new "filtered" me. I used to talk really great, carry on these sexy conversations with women. Comment on women's pictures, but not in a perverted way, but a way that made them really want to know who I was. That's how I became friends with models. I had a way with my words that just captivated them. I wasn't worried about who was looking or who was reading, or what ppl would think. I just did what I did because that's who I was. Anyway, when the pastor was added to my facebook, I had to stop doing that...well because he was a pastor. I didn't want him seeing my posts to women and comments, because you know on FB you have no damn privacy. They plaster everything you do and say all over everyone's News Feed. Anyway, even though he's not on my page anymore due to all the stuff that happened with him and our church, I never reverted back to being who I was. I just stayed that way. That actually hurt me because it made me more vulnerable to feelings, which is what I've been fighting with. When Cornelia came over here and I met her, nothing happened and she just ran away back home. That really hurt me. Then this stuff with Dyanna, how she seems to not really care about me or anything else, and is so busy trying to keep attention with all the other guys on her fb page, that also hurt me. I was just letting myself get hurt by these things and it was screwing with my focus and really bringing me down. Well that is what Lisa reminded me of. So when we got home and talked more about it, I felt AMAZING! I remembered who I used to be and realized that I hadn't been that person in a long time now. That finally got me out of it all. This is what FYRESCAPE is all about. It's not just about physical health, it's about mental health as well. Becoming better in every way! That is why I entitled this blog with the "Overkill" logo as well, because that is truly what I did. To celebrate, the rest of the day was to just having fun! I took Lisa to town and we bought some hamburgers at Lotaburger. OMG it was soooooo good!!!! That was literally my first hamburger in Who Knows how long. Oh man it was good and soo tasty!! Then, I bought me a movie at Hastings. A scary one that I'd been waiting for since last year, called "The Babadook." After that we came home and Lisa went to class. I changed things on my FB page and started posting like I used to, no longer letting things get to me like they had been. I felt so great and so refreshed! I'm finally back to who I was!!! Finally.
While Lisa was at class, I watched 'Fast Five'. I also planted another tree outside, one that my grandpa and grandma gave me. It's supposed to be a pretty tree that has flowers on it. Apparently it won't bloom until around July, but it blooms all the way into fall, so it's supposed to be pretty nice. I planted it in a good spot. It was so nice outside too because this afternoon it got cloudy and really cool outside. It's been hot lately, so this coolness was great. My dogs loved it. I played with Cody out there. I was whacking this rubber toy so he could fetch it. It was so funny, I hit that thing perfectly to where when Jayde was running by (she's a little Chihuahua) it slammed right into her side, knocking her over to where she tumbled hahaha. That was so cute! It didn't hurt her, just knocked her off her feet while she was running over to Lisa's car as she pulled into the driveway. It was funny!
Afterwards, we watched 'The Babadook'. Oh man, that movie was/is CREEPY!! I really enjoyed it. I'm not in the business of buying movies before I've actually seen them, but this one I had a lot of faith in that it was going to be good and I was right! Definitely not a waste of money. It got me scared! I would recommend it to anyone!
Finished off the day by going up to the casino. I lost $20. Almost lost 40, but I got twenty of it back, then we left. I wasn't about to put more money back into that bitch casino. Oh man, really sad thing was that we didn't get there until late. We left, it was almost 11pm. There was this old grandma there. She was so old and so tired looking. Her dumbass stupid ungrateful shit kids or grandkids had this poor old woman there and while they left her sitting at a slot machine, which she didn't even know how to play, they took her money and ran off to play the slots. Didn't look like any of them were even winning so they kept coming back to her and she would give them more money, then they'd all run off and leave her there. She looked like she didn't even know how to play or what to do. Lisa and I felt so bad for her. She was just staring over at us while we played. She had a walker and everything. She was so old. I swear, that woman should have been home in bed sleeping, not at the casino. I mean, it was freakin 10:45 at night, why the hell would you bring you poor old grandma to the casino. Omg that made both Lisa and I really mad. On our way home, Lisa just started crying. She felt so bad about how that lady was treated by her stupid grandkids or whoever they were. She felt really bad and just broke down. She said she would never treat her grandma that way. Neither of us would. You need to have respect for your grandparents. It's disgusting how some ppl treat old ppl just because they get money and these young ppl are too damn lazy to go out and get a job, they just take from their grandma's and grandpa's and go off spending their money. That pisses me off!!!
RESPECT YOUR GRANDPARENTS, PARENTS, AND ALL THOSE WHO HAVE EVER HELPED YOU OR SUPPORTED YOU! BE THE KIND OF PERSON YOU WOULD TELL OTHER PEOPLE ABOUT IN PRAISE. NEVER NEGLECT OR STEAL.
Monday, April 13, 2015
Day Three Hundred Fifty - Overkill Day Twenty Eight
Did 3 miles this morning!
Got home and did my outside weights workout. 3 sets of deadlifts, 10 reps each. 2 sets of 100lb curls. 2 sets of bench pressing, then I did some jump rope.
After the workout, Lees and I came inside and for some weird reason, it smelled like cat piss in the living room REALLY BAD. Oh man I was so pissed, I thought Sebastian ran in there and peed all over the place, but he didn't. It was bizarre. Lisa looked everywhere but there was nothing. I don't know where the hell it was coming from. Anyway, I assumed that somehow, Sebastian ran underneath the place and peed under there, then the smell just rose up so we opened the windows and the smell cleared out really good. That was more proof that it happened the way I thought because if he did pee inside the house, that smell is so strong that it will not leave unless you freakin wash it away. Even then, it takes some time before it's fully gone. One day we left his furry butt in the house and he sprayed all over the couch and floor. It stunk inside for about 3 to 4 days, even after we washed it. Oooh I was mad. Since then, I have not allowed him back inside. He's banned from entering the house. Crazy cat.
I watched the movie, 'The Shining' today for the first time. I remember my dad watched it a lot when I was just a small boy and he used to scare the hell outta me with that "Here's Johnny" line! I do not remember the movie though because I was way too young to even pay attention to it. Anyway, so I figured this was my first official time watching it. It was pretty creepy! That music in the movie, oh man that was what made is scary. I definitely got creeped out. Then, since we had the windows open, after the movie was over I was sitting there on the couch by myself because Lisa was at work and this draft blew in thru the back kitchen window so perfectly that it came brushing past my left ear and it literally felt like someone blew into my ear from behind. I jumped and freaked out lol. It was crazy! That was my scare for the day hahaha :D
Finished the day with my evening workout of DDP yoga, 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finally my dumbbell workout. It felt great to finally finish it all. I even finished out most my water today.
Got home and did my outside weights workout. 3 sets of deadlifts, 10 reps each. 2 sets of 100lb curls. 2 sets of bench pressing, then I did some jump rope.
After the workout, Lees and I came inside and for some weird reason, it smelled like cat piss in the living room REALLY BAD. Oh man I was so pissed, I thought Sebastian ran in there and peed all over the place, but he didn't. It was bizarre. Lisa looked everywhere but there was nothing. I don't know where the hell it was coming from. Anyway, I assumed that somehow, Sebastian ran underneath the place and peed under there, then the smell just rose up so we opened the windows and the smell cleared out really good. That was more proof that it happened the way I thought because if he did pee inside the house, that smell is so strong that it will not leave unless you freakin wash it away. Even then, it takes some time before it's fully gone. One day we left his furry butt in the house and he sprayed all over the couch and floor. It stunk inside for about 3 to 4 days, even after we washed it. Oooh I was mad. Since then, I have not allowed him back inside. He's banned from entering the house. Crazy cat.
I watched the movie, 'The Shining' today for the first time. I remember my dad watched it a lot when I was just a small boy and he used to scare the hell outta me with that "Here's Johnny" line! I do not remember the movie though because I was way too young to even pay attention to it. Anyway, so I figured this was my first official time watching it. It was pretty creepy! That music in the movie, oh man that was what made is scary. I definitely got creeped out. Then, since we had the windows open, after the movie was over I was sitting there on the couch by myself because Lisa was at work and this draft blew in thru the back kitchen window so perfectly that it came brushing past my left ear and it literally felt like someone blew into my ear from behind. I jumped and freaked out lol. It was crazy! That was my scare for the day hahaha :D
Finished the day with my evening workout of DDP yoga, 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finally my dumbbell workout. It felt great to finally finish it all. I even finished out most my water today.
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Nine
Did my 3 miles today!
I attempted to do my Bowflex workout today, but I was just tired. I couldn't get myself to do it. I talked with Lisa and she told me to just take time to rest. I've had so much crap on my mind lately and it's really weighing down on me today.
I did do my evening workout tonight. DDP yoga, followed by 40 crunches, 20 cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finally finishing it off with my dumbbell workout. That really made me feel good. Tomorrow I'm going to do my morning workout after my 3 miles for sure.
One thing I decided is that I'm going to go easy on water for the rest of the month. I've been so damn tired of exercising and drinking a gallon of water per day. Oh man, I swear everyday it's just water water water. I tend to be one of those ppl that if they don't stick to their routine, the world just ended. I don't want to be that way. If I don't do exercising for a day, so be it, as long as I do it the following day. (But I'm going to try to not let that happen and keep it up consistently) Same with my water. If one day I'm just so tired of water and don't finish the whole gallon, then just put it aside and try again the following day. I mean, I have been drinking so much water and what really pisses me off is that the only thing I really seem to have gotten out of drinking a gallon of water per day, is that I gained weight AND I have to go to the bathroom a lot more. That is really what came with it for me. Yes, my weight increased when I switched to drinking a gallon of water per day. I don't know how that happened, but it did. No it wasn't my diet because my diet never changed and I was actually doing more workouts than I ever had before by doing Bowflex, DDP yoga, Weights, Ab Lounge, Exercise bike. I mean all that put together...and I ended up gaining weight! That was so fudged up. I was pissed. Anyway, so that fact lingers in my head. I always thought (because of what I read) that water is supposed to help you lose weight, not gain it. Then I read that when you first start drinking water and hydrating yourself properly by drinking a gallon or more per day, then your body which most ppl spend in 80% dehydration throughout their lives because they don't drink enough water, your cells will retain a lot of that water to rehydrate itself, therefore your water weight will increase. I truly believe that is what happened to me because I kept up my workouts and my eating habits were good, yet I somehow had a weight increase. Crazy! Still, I didn't let that get me down, I kept right at it. It's just at this point, after doing this stuff for almost a year and being just mentally drained from all the stuff going on with women, along with stress from money issues, I'm just zero'd out!
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Eight
Started my day off with my 3 miles!
Went to the grocery store today and picked up some chow. One thing I've been fighting is my urge to go up to the casino. So far, I'm doin pretty good. I really got tired of that crap because seriously, all that place has been doing is taking my money. I'm not winning anything up there. In fact, I haven't won anything since that day I was $126, then the following day I went back and won $110. Well, I have not won anything else since I've been there and I truly believe it's because of that "Players Club Card." I think the casino is ripping me off by keeping track of me with that card and so the machines aren't paying me anything. Since then, I've lost $80 once, and $60 twice, and that's not counting the small winnings like $5 and $10 dollars that I win while playing that much money. So yeah, that damn place has just been ripping me off and I'm sick of it. I refuse to go back there. Lisa wants to go back just to have fun but I'm skeptical. If I do go back there, I'm limiting myself to only playing $20. Screw the disappointment.
Well this evening I tried to get up and to my DDP yoga workout, but I was just so damn immobile. I couldn't get myself up to do it. I don't know, I'm so freakin unfocused right now. I just feel like I'm tired of exercising and I just don't want to do it, but I'm not giving up. However long it takes, I'm going to get back to it soon.
Went to the grocery store today and picked up some chow. One thing I've been fighting is my urge to go up to the casino. So far, I'm doin pretty good. I really got tired of that crap because seriously, all that place has been doing is taking my money. I'm not winning anything up there. In fact, I haven't won anything since that day I was $126, then the following day I went back and won $110. Well, I have not won anything else since I've been there and I truly believe it's because of that "Players Club Card." I think the casino is ripping me off by keeping track of me with that card and so the machines aren't paying me anything. Since then, I've lost $80 once, and $60 twice, and that's not counting the small winnings like $5 and $10 dollars that I win while playing that much money. So yeah, that damn place has just been ripping me off and I'm sick of it. I refuse to go back there. Lisa wants to go back just to have fun but I'm skeptical. If I do go back there, I'm limiting myself to only playing $20. Screw the disappointment.
Well this evening I tried to get up and to my DDP yoga workout, but I was just so damn immobile. I couldn't get myself up to do it. I don't know, I'm so freakin unfocused right now. I just feel like I'm tired of exercising and I just don't want to do it, but I'm not giving up. However long it takes, I'm going to get back to it soon.
Friday, April 10, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Seven - REST DAY
No exercise today! Today was Bills Day, so we had to leave early and get things taken care of in town. Also, today I had a date again with Dyanna. We planned on seeing 'Furious 7' and going out to eat afterwards.
All I can say is that it sucked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We went to the movie. I had to rush because Lisa and I didn't get back home until late. I tried texting Dyanna and asking her if we could watch the next showing because I wouldn't be able to make it all the way across town in 10 mins, when it started. She didn't want to. She said she had to pick up her daughter because her worthless ex (or whoever he is) wouldn't do it. So I changed and raced over there anyway to meet her. We missed about 15 minutes of the movie, but it was still pretty good. That last scene of the movie is really sad.
Well soon as the movie is over, she jumps up and says she has to pick up her daughter, then she takes off on me. Just bolts out the theater and leaves me sittin there confused and alone. Now that was cold, honestly. I mean, I'm sure her daughter would've been fine. Just had to wait there with the adults a few minutes. Here Dyanna jus took off and didn't say anything. That really made me feel bad. I understand why she did it, but it still made me feel bad. I had a whole evening planned for us..well that just went to crap. So I walked out to my truck, got in a came home. Didn't feel like doing anything else. When I had got home, she texted me and asked me to meet her in town for lunch, but I was already home and didn't feel like racing back into town, plus I didn't know the place they were at. So there went my whole day. I just did not feel like doing anything else. I don't know, this stuff is really bringing me down. I need to get myself focused once again. I have lots of things I need to do and I can't be lagging and letting this crap defeat me.
All I can say is that it sucked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We went to the movie. I had to rush because Lisa and I didn't get back home until late. I tried texting Dyanna and asking her if we could watch the next showing because I wouldn't be able to make it all the way across town in 10 mins, when it started. She didn't want to. She said she had to pick up her daughter because her worthless ex (or whoever he is) wouldn't do it. So I changed and raced over there anyway to meet her. We missed about 15 minutes of the movie, but it was still pretty good. That last scene of the movie is really sad.
Well soon as the movie is over, she jumps up and says she has to pick up her daughter, then she takes off on me. Just bolts out the theater and leaves me sittin there confused and alone. Now that was cold, honestly. I mean, I'm sure her daughter would've been fine. Just had to wait there with the adults a few minutes. Here Dyanna jus took off and didn't say anything. That really made me feel bad. I understand why she did it, but it still made me feel bad. I had a whole evening planned for us..well that just went to crap. So I walked out to my truck, got in a came home. Didn't feel like doing anything else. When I had got home, she texted me and asked me to meet her in town for lunch, but I was already home and didn't feel like racing back into town, plus I didn't know the place they were at. So there went my whole day. I just did not feel like doing anything else. I don't know, this stuff is really bringing me down. I need to get myself focused once again. I have lots of things I need to do and I can't be lagging and letting this crap defeat me.
Thursday, April 9, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Six - Overkill Day Twenty Seven
Ok, today I did my 3 miles this morning!
I have a HUGE problem today though and I am totally serious about this.
I AM SO FREAKIN SORE TODAY!!!
Oh my gosh, I am sore. That weights workout yesterday, along with that killer DDP yoga workout last night...oh man that killed me. I'm still calling this day and 'Overkill' workout day because I tried. I attempted to do a Bowflex workout after my 3 miles this morning. I tried so hard, but my body was just way too tired. I could barely lift that handgrip outward to do my bench press workout. My body is exhausted. I was so sore I couldn't even walk that fast this morning. I tried hard, but my legs honestly felt like they were dead. I have a hard time standing up after sitting down. Gosh I haven't been this sore in a long time. I'm serious, that DDP yoga is HARD!!! It is so tough to do that Energy. You really workout your entire body. It's insane and my arms are so sore even now as I'm writing this blog. I can't wait to sleep tonight and just outstretch my body.
I didn't finish my gallon of water today. I was out most the evening with Dyanna. We went to watch the movie, 'IT FOLLOWS'. It was ok. Not as scary as it was made out to be, but it was creepy. I enjoyed it. Good movie. We're planning on going out again tomorrow afternoon to see 'Furious 7'. Lisa and I already watched that on Tuesday. Dyanna was sad that I went without her, so I'm taking her to see it tomorrow, then we're going to go eat out somewhere. Those are my plans tomorrow, as well as paying bills. Long day but I'm definitely going to try and get my workouts in, as long as I'm not as sore as today. Omgosh I am so weak right now, and aching everywhere especially in my arms. Atleast I know that I'm really into Overkill now ;} It's gonna be Awesome when my soreness is pass.
I have a HUGE problem today though and I am totally serious about this.
I AM SO FREAKIN SORE TODAY!!!
Oh my gosh, I am sore. That weights workout yesterday, along with that killer DDP yoga workout last night...oh man that killed me. I'm still calling this day and 'Overkill' workout day because I tried. I attempted to do a Bowflex workout after my 3 miles this morning. I tried so hard, but my body was just way too tired. I could barely lift that handgrip outward to do my bench press workout. My body is exhausted. I was so sore I couldn't even walk that fast this morning. I tried hard, but my legs honestly felt like they were dead. I have a hard time standing up after sitting down. Gosh I haven't been this sore in a long time. I'm serious, that DDP yoga is HARD!!! It is so tough to do that Energy. You really workout your entire body. It's insane and my arms are so sore even now as I'm writing this blog. I can't wait to sleep tonight and just outstretch my body.
I didn't finish my gallon of water today. I was out most the evening with Dyanna. We went to watch the movie, 'IT FOLLOWS'. It was ok. Not as scary as it was made out to be, but it was creepy. I enjoyed it. Good movie. We're planning on going out again tomorrow afternoon to see 'Furious 7'. Lisa and I already watched that on Tuesday. Dyanna was sad that I went without her, so I'm taking her to see it tomorrow, then we're going to go eat out somewhere. Those are my plans tomorrow, as well as paying bills. Long day but I'm definitely going to try and get my workouts in, as long as I'm not as sore as today. Omgosh I am so weak right now, and aching everywhere especially in my arms. Atleast I know that I'm really into Overkill now ;} It's gonna be Awesome when my soreness is pass.
Wednesday, April 8, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Five - Overkill Day Twenty Six
Did 3 miles today! Lisa is back to running. She runs from the house, all the way to the end point on our trail. Long ways! She's doing Awesome.
When we got back, I did my outside weights workout. Dang I haven't done this in over a week. I did 3 sets of 10 deadlifts. 2 sets of 5 100lb curls. 2 sets of bench presses and finished it off with some jump roping. Really tough, but great workout!
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening, I did my DDP yoga (Energy) workout, followed by 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finally my dumbbell workout. Totally killed it again today. I feel great...but oh my gosh am I tired!
When we got back, I did my outside weights workout. Dang I haven't done this in over a week. I did 3 sets of 10 deadlifts. 2 sets of 5 100lb curls. 2 sets of bench presses and finished it off with some jump roping. Really tough, but great workout!
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening, I did my DDP yoga (Energy) workout, followed by 40 crunches, cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups, and finally my dumbbell workout. Totally killed it again today. I feel great...but oh my gosh am I tired!
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Four - Overkill Day Twenty Five
Today I got back to 'Overkill' finally!!
Did 3 miles this morning for my warm-up ;}
Finished my gallon of water today.
I did a late Bowflex workout. 2 sets of 15 reps each and some exercises I did 3 sets. Others I did 2 sets of 20 reps with one workout 2 sets of 25 reps. That workout was followed by 30 reps on the Ab lounge and 21 minutes on the exercise bike. Totally killed it today! The entire workout takes a lil over an hour to complete. 32 minutes on the Bowflex and the remaining time on the other exercises.
Finished off my day with DDP yoga this evening. I did the Energy workout. So Awesome! I followed that up with 40 crunches, my cross leglifts and my elevated leg swings, then finished with my dumbbell workout! Really Awesome workout today. Total Overkill.
Did 3 miles this morning for my warm-up ;}
Finished my gallon of water today.
I did a late Bowflex workout. 2 sets of 15 reps each and some exercises I did 3 sets. Others I did 2 sets of 20 reps with one workout 2 sets of 25 reps. That workout was followed by 30 reps on the Ab lounge and 21 minutes on the exercise bike. Totally killed it today! The entire workout takes a lil over an hour to complete. 32 minutes on the Bowflex and the remaining time on the other exercises.
Finished off my day with DDP yoga this evening. I did the Energy workout. So Awesome! I followed that up with 40 crunches, my cross leglifts and my elevated leg swings, then finished with my dumbbell workout! Really Awesome workout today. Total Overkill.
Monday, April 6, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Three
Did 3 miles this morning!
Did not finish my gallon of water this morning. That is one thing that I've decided. I have been drinking a gallon of water everyday since February. Today is the first time I didn't finish it. At first, I felt like a failure, but honestly, it's just one day. As long as it doesn't turn into a week, or worse a month, then I'm good. One day, Two days, those are nothing. Some days I feel so full of water that I just don't got room for any. I'd like to drink other things too. So, from now on I'm not going to be pressuring myself to finish the gallon everyday or the game is over! That's crazy. The important thing here is to be exercising. That, I'm definitely going to do everyday except for my Rest Days and/or days when I'm either too damn sore to move, or if I'm really busy with something else either work or family related. Those are my exceptions! Anyway, oh and another thing, this is something I'd like my readers to NOTE: When I started drinking a gallon of water per day, I checked my weight a couple weeks later. My weight increased! Yes and this was when I was dieting and doing some hard exercising and weights everyday! So it's not fat gain. It is true that when you first start hydrating yourself for the first time, your cells in your body will retain a lot of that water so if you're one of those crazy ppl like me and completely paranoid about what the weigh scale says, just note that it is possible for your weight to increase when you first start hydrating yourself in healthy ways. Some of us don't know it, but we are very highly dehydrated. Our bodies need water. One gallon per day is what we should be taking in. I've been doing that. Some side probs to that, you'll need to go to the bathroom a lot. Totally normal! Also, your weight may increase a bit. The good thing is that it really does clean out your system and by drinking water, you're not hungry as much and by drinking that much water, that's pretty much All you'll be drinking. I spread out my gallon throughout the entire day. I don't just guzzle it down all at once. I spread it out so I'm taking in water during the whole day and keeping myself hydrated. It helps during my workouts. So there are so many advantages in drinking water daily. Just don't drink too much all at once. I hear you can damage yourself that way. Spread it out! So for me, now, I'm going to keep up with the daily gallon, but I may skip a day here and there, just so I can drink other things like V8 juice, or Milk and the "occasional" Diet Coke. Just gotta limit yourself.
That was all the exercising I did today, just my 3 miles. I was going to do the Bowflex workout, but I got too busy today. I plan on it tomorrow for sure!
Did not finish my gallon of water this morning. That is one thing that I've decided. I have been drinking a gallon of water everyday since February. Today is the first time I didn't finish it. At first, I felt like a failure, but honestly, it's just one day. As long as it doesn't turn into a week, or worse a month, then I'm good. One day, Two days, those are nothing. Some days I feel so full of water that I just don't got room for any. I'd like to drink other things too. So, from now on I'm not going to be pressuring myself to finish the gallon everyday or the game is over! That's crazy. The important thing here is to be exercising. That, I'm definitely going to do everyday except for my Rest Days and/or days when I'm either too damn sore to move, or if I'm really busy with something else either work or family related. Those are my exceptions! Anyway, oh and another thing, this is something I'd like my readers to NOTE: When I started drinking a gallon of water per day, I checked my weight a couple weeks later. My weight increased! Yes and this was when I was dieting and doing some hard exercising and weights everyday! So it's not fat gain. It is true that when you first start hydrating yourself for the first time, your cells in your body will retain a lot of that water so if you're one of those crazy ppl like me and completely paranoid about what the weigh scale says, just note that it is possible for your weight to increase when you first start hydrating yourself in healthy ways. Some of us don't know it, but we are very highly dehydrated. Our bodies need water. One gallon per day is what we should be taking in. I've been doing that. Some side probs to that, you'll need to go to the bathroom a lot. Totally normal! Also, your weight may increase a bit. The good thing is that it really does clean out your system and by drinking water, you're not hungry as much and by drinking that much water, that's pretty much All you'll be drinking. I spread out my gallon throughout the entire day. I don't just guzzle it down all at once. I spread it out so I'm taking in water during the whole day and keeping myself hydrated. It helps during my workouts. So there are so many advantages in drinking water daily. Just don't drink too much all at once. I hear you can damage yourself that way. Spread it out! So for me, now, I'm going to keep up with the daily gallon, but I may skip a day here and there, just so I can drink other things like V8 juice, or Milk and the "occasional" Diet Coke. Just gotta limit yourself.
That was all the exercising I did today, just my 3 miles. I was going to do the Bowflex workout, but I got too busy today. I plan on it tomorrow for sure!
Sunday, April 5, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty Two - REST DAY
HAPPY EASTER!!!
This was the day He had risen.
Thank You so much Lord Jesus for sacrificing your life so that we may one day be with God the Father. That was the greatest gift ever!
Today was/is pretty good. Thought I'd write this blog early. Went for a lil walk this morning, but only to take the dogs walking. Lees and I took them down to the river. Cody played in the water, Cooper was jealous that he wasn't getting as much attention lol. It was funny! We were there for about an hour, just playing and talking. Thought a lot about Cornelia today, but didn't hear from her or anything. Sux. I probably didn't make that good of an impression. Anyway, when we got home, we went into town. I had to buy some more food for my dogs and we got some food there at the store and came home, then just enjoyed the rest of the day here at home. Lisa went to work. In a while, I'm about to go over to my parents place, as they're having an Easter dinner thing. They invited my grandparents, so it'll be good to see them.
Still workin on my gallon of water right now. I've been drinking so much water, it's crazy. Seems that's all I drink anymore. I didn't finish my entire gallon yesterday because of my meet with Cornelia, so I downed the rest of it earlier today, then filled it up and now I'm working on today's gallon, so technically I did finish it, which is why I put that I did in yesterday's blog. Cheating, yeah, but hey cut me some slack.
Tomorrow, I'm planning on getting back to 'Overkill'. Gonna start off with my 3 mile warm up, then do the Bowflex and all. Evening workout starting with DDP yoga. My arms feel much better today. Not sore or anything, so I should be good. Well, that's all I've got for my rest day. I'll be over at my parents place for the next couple hours, then probably just hang out back here at home. Nothin else to do today. Enjoy the rest of the holiday ;}
This was the day He had risen.
Thank You so much Lord Jesus for sacrificing your life so that we may one day be with God the Father. That was the greatest gift ever!
Today was/is pretty good. Thought I'd write this blog early. Went for a lil walk this morning, but only to take the dogs walking. Lees and I took them down to the river. Cody played in the water, Cooper was jealous that he wasn't getting as much attention lol. It was funny! We were there for about an hour, just playing and talking. Thought a lot about Cornelia today, but didn't hear from her or anything. Sux. I probably didn't make that good of an impression. Anyway, when we got home, we went into town. I had to buy some more food for my dogs and we got some food there at the store and came home, then just enjoyed the rest of the day here at home. Lisa went to work. In a while, I'm about to go over to my parents place, as they're having an Easter dinner thing. They invited my grandparents, so it'll be good to see them.
Still workin on my gallon of water right now. I've been drinking so much water, it's crazy. Seems that's all I drink anymore. I didn't finish my entire gallon yesterday because of my meet with Cornelia, so I downed the rest of it earlier today, then filled it up and now I'm working on today's gallon, so technically I did finish it, which is why I put that I did in yesterday's blog. Cheating, yeah, but hey cut me some slack.
Tomorrow, I'm planning on getting back to 'Overkill'. Gonna start off with my 3 mile warm up, then do the Bowflex and all. Evening workout starting with DDP yoga. My arms feel much better today. Not sore or anything, so I should be good. Well, that's all I've got for my rest day. I'll be over at my parents place for the next couple hours, then probably just hang out back here at home. Nothin else to do today. Enjoy the rest of the holiday ;}
Saturday, April 4, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty One
Did my 3 miles this morning!
Finished my water.
I was a bit upset that I didn't get to meet Cornelia last night. We set it for today though, so this evening I put off the rest of my workouts to go and see her. It wasn't until after 9pm though. Finally got to see her. I met her at the Comfort Inn here in Farmington. It was a really great meet. She is so beautiful. Definitely one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen in my life. I loved talking to her and visiting with her. We talked about everything. Eventually, her family came downstairs to the hotel lobby where we were sitting and I met a lot of them. They are really nice and fun ppl. I wish so bad that I spent more time with her throughout the day. I'll always regret that. She was Amazing, though. We talked until about 11:30, then her sis wanted to leave so she went with her. They wanted me to go with them to the casino, but because of my bad experiences there the past few visits, I wanted to go with Cornelia, but I didn't really want to go to that casino. I'd probably end up losing all my money again which I was NOT about to do. No Way No How!! So, regretfully I passed.
That was my day. It was pretty good. Tomorrow I'm taking a rest day to observe and enjoy the Easter Holiday, as it was the day our Savior had risen.
Finished my water.
I was a bit upset that I didn't get to meet Cornelia last night. We set it for today though, so this evening I put off the rest of my workouts to go and see her. It wasn't until after 9pm though. Finally got to see her. I met her at the Comfort Inn here in Farmington. It was a really great meet. She is so beautiful. Definitely one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen in my life. I loved talking to her and visiting with her. We talked about everything. Eventually, her family came downstairs to the hotel lobby where we were sitting and I met a lot of them. They are really nice and fun ppl. I wish so bad that I spent more time with her throughout the day. I'll always regret that. She was Amazing, though. We talked until about 11:30, then her sis wanted to leave so she went with her. They wanted me to go with them to the casino, but because of my bad experiences there the past few visits, I wanted to go with Cornelia, but I didn't really want to go to that casino. I'd probably end up losing all my money again which I was NOT about to do. No Way No How!! So, regretfully I passed.
That was my day. It was pretty good. Tomorrow I'm taking a rest day to observe and enjoy the Easter Holiday, as it was the day our Savior had risen.
Friday, April 3, 2015
Day Three Hundred Forty
Today was not an exercise day for me. This morning I did some work for my grandpa, hauling off trash. That kept me busy throughout the day. The evening was spent waiting. My friend, Cornelia, came down for a wedding. She and I were supposed to meet this evening, but things got busy for her so we didn't meet today. I waited most the evening for her call so I put off my workouts today. I don't mind though. After those DDP yoga workouts, I could definitely use the time off. Maybe I'll take the weekend.
Did finish my gallon of water today though. That's one positive thing ;}
Did finish my gallon of water today though. That's one positive thing ;}
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Day Three Hundred Thirty Nine - Overkill Day Twenty Four
Did 3 miles this morning! I didn't do my Bowflex workout because this is my day to skip. I was going to do my outside weights workout, but oh man my arms are super sore from the DDP yoga workout last night. That 'Energy' workout is really kickin my butt.
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout once again. It was so hard today! I mean, I could not believe how flippin hard it was. My arms are so sore. I followed the yoga with my 40 crunches, 10 cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups and finally my dumbbell workout. Totally worn out right now! I'm seriously hoping I can do this DDP yoga workout everyday. I'm going to try and push it for sure, but I'm telling you, it is tough! Really wears you out after a while.
Finished my gallon of water today!
This evening I did my DDP yoga workout once again. It was so hard today! I mean, I could not believe how flippin hard it was. My arms are so sore. I followed the yoga with my 40 crunches, 10 cross leglifts, elevated leg swings, pushups and finally my dumbbell workout. Totally worn out right now! I'm seriously hoping I can do this DDP yoga workout everyday. I'm going to try and push it for sure, but I'm telling you, it is tough! Really wears you out after a while.
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Day Three Hundred Thirty Eight - Overkill Day Twenty Three
Today was an AWESOME day of working out!!!
Did 3 miles this morning, which was my warm up for the day! When we got back, I drank some water, then I hit the Bowflex. I did 2 sets of each exercise at 15 reps per set. When I worked my legs, I did 3 sets. After that, I hit the Ab lounge and did 30 reps. That one was tough because I really worked my abs on the Bowflex, so when I got to the Ab lounge, I was really pushing the muscles in my stomach. Finally, I finished the morning workout off with the exercise bike. I rode it for almost 21 minutes. I hit 20 mins 51 secs. From 18 minutes, I pushed myself like crazy. I was riding that thing so hard and fast, by the time I hit 20 mins, I was so tired. I tried to hit 21, but my leg started cramping up and I had to immediately stop! Crazy, but oh man did it feel great! My whole body got a killer workout this morning and it wasn't done yet!
Finished my gallon of water today, and pretty early this time. If I can try to finish it early, I may start shooting for 2 gallons per day, but we'll see. I don't wanna just drink water everyday all day. I love other drinks too. I think one gallon a day is enough for now. Later, we'll just have to see.
This evening was so Awesome! As I mentioned yesterday, today is the start of 'ENERGY' on DDP yoga. I did it!!! Oh man, I actually freakin did it hahaha!!! I was so proud and happy. The workout itself is 21 minutes long, but let me tell you, every second of that workout you are killing it. As I said yesterday, I did this once a long while back, but I couldn't do it. Well, today I kept up with the whole thing! I was so proud. The whole workout, I kept up with it. Oh man it was so hard, but I did it. So proud! It really does pump you up too. I was sweatin so bad, I mean worse than I've ever sweat before. It was just pouring off my face, but when it was over, I felt Amazing!! My body was energized and I was really proud of myself. That whole month of the 'Diamond Dozen' really paid off because I knew all the moves he was telling us to do and I know how to do them. I so can't wait for tomorrow's evening workout. It's gonna be Awesome!! I'm going to do this every night all month long, then I'll start the next workout in May, or maybe when Fyrescape 2 starts. That one is called, Fat Burner. That workout is long! A lot longer than Energy, so I need to own this Energy workout, then I'll start climbing the ladder.
After my yoga workout, I did my usual. 40 crunches, followed by 10 cross leglifts, and 20 seconds of elevated leg swings this time. Before I only did 10 secs. Then I did my pushups and finally my dumbbell workout. I was super tired afterwards, but wow did I feel great! Total Overkill today and I loved it. I'm so glad I took those last few days easy because for what I did today, I definitely needed it to be able to hit it as hard as I did. Tomorrow, I'm lookin forward to as well ;}
Did 3 miles this morning, which was my warm up for the day! When we got back, I drank some water, then I hit the Bowflex. I did 2 sets of each exercise at 15 reps per set. When I worked my legs, I did 3 sets. After that, I hit the Ab lounge and did 30 reps. That one was tough because I really worked my abs on the Bowflex, so when I got to the Ab lounge, I was really pushing the muscles in my stomach. Finally, I finished the morning workout off with the exercise bike. I rode it for almost 21 minutes. I hit 20 mins 51 secs. From 18 minutes, I pushed myself like crazy. I was riding that thing so hard and fast, by the time I hit 20 mins, I was so tired. I tried to hit 21, but my leg started cramping up and I had to immediately stop! Crazy, but oh man did it feel great! My whole body got a killer workout this morning and it wasn't done yet!
Finished my gallon of water today, and pretty early this time. If I can try to finish it early, I may start shooting for 2 gallons per day, but we'll see. I don't wanna just drink water everyday all day. I love other drinks too. I think one gallon a day is enough for now. Later, we'll just have to see.
This evening was so Awesome! As I mentioned yesterday, today is the start of 'ENERGY' on DDP yoga. I did it!!! Oh man, I actually freakin did it hahaha!!! I was so proud and happy. The workout itself is 21 minutes long, but let me tell you, every second of that workout you are killing it. As I said yesterday, I did this once a long while back, but I couldn't do it. Well, today I kept up with the whole thing! I was so proud. The whole workout, I kept up with it. Oh man it was so hard, but I did it. So proud! It really does pump you up too. I was sweatin so bad, I mean worse than I've ever sweat before. It was just pouring off my face, but when it was over, I felt Amazing!! My body was energized and I was really proud of myself. That whole month of the 'Diamond Dozen' really paid off because I knew all the moves he was telling us to do and I know how to do them. I so can't wait for tomorrow's evening workout. It's gonna be Awesome!! I'm going to do this every night all month long, then I'll start the next workout in May, or maybe when Fyrescape 2 starts. That one is called, Fat Burner. That workout is long! A lot longer than Energy, so I need to own this Energy workout, then I'll start climbing the ladder.
After my yoga workout, I did my usual. 40 crunches, followed by 10 cross leglifts, and 20 seconds of elevated leg swings this time. Before I only did 10 secs. Then I did my pushups and finally my dumbbell workout. I was super tired afterwards, but wow did I feel great! Total Overkill today and I loved it. I'm so glad I took those last few days easy because for what I did today, I definitely needed it to be able to hit it as hard as I did. Tomorrow, I'm lookin forward to as well ;}
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