MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!
Wow Christmas Day of 2014!!!! Seems like just last year it was 2013 ;} lol jk. Anyway, today was a wonderful day. A day to celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. This was the day that God sent his son down to earth to die for our sins so that one day we may be with Him in heaven! You know, whether you believe that or not, it's very Very true!!
Well it was a surprising day. I started talking with my mom and family again. Honestly though, there's still tension between my mom and I. I could very clearly tell that she was really forcing herself to be normal toward me, but I could feel it that there was something just not right. My mom and I have this strained relationship. Most of the time we're ok and we get along, but there are times when something I do or say just really pisses her off. That's when that tension comes up and she really sux at trying to hide it because there is so much anger inside her. She's like that with everyone. When she gets mad, she is mad intensely! Anyway, I didn't care much. I just tried to enjoy the day mainly for Lisa. She was happy today and she did everything she could to keep me positive.
We went to breakfast at the usual IHOP. We go there every Christmas. Tension though. My dad and I were talking pretty good, but my mom and I were quiet. My grandma joined us and she kept things lively. I couldn't imagine what it would've been like if she wasn't there. My sister, of course, didn't join us. We didn't see her the whole day. Can you believe it? Christmas Day and she did not spend it with her family. Crazy. But, I'm totally done trying to help and care for her. She's digging her own grave with the stuff she's involved in. No one, well not me, is gonna be there when she crumbles and mark my words, that day is coming. It's already came before several times, yet she keeps right on running back to it all. Anyway, she texted me. She told me that she loves me. I told her the same and that she'll always be my little sister. That's true! She will always be my sister. I can't change the mistakes she's doing, but I will always love her. I'm not full of anger and hate like my mom. I'm not saying my mom hates her. My mom was pissed off at me because I got after my sis for letting all of us down, especially her and my dad. Yup, that pissed her off and she stopped talking to me. Some mom, huh! Oh man, that still makes me angry.
Anyway, the rest of the day was great. They bought Lisa and I some presents. I thought we were gonna open them up at their house, but my dad started loading them all up in my truck. Dang I felt really bad though because we didn't get any presents for anybody. Lisa and I totally coined out and didn't even have the money to get each other presents, much less some for anyone else. So yeah, I felt really bad. We did what we could though. We gave everyone a Christmas Card. They had Christmas lunch at their house and invited my grandparents, so when we went there we gave everyone their cards and our Christmas gift to them is to invite them over for dinner at our place on January 21, 2015. We're gonna make dinner and give them their Christmas gifts then. That'll be nice, we thought. So yup, that's the plan. Our gifts were really nice too. My favorite was an air compressor that my dad bought me. I know it was him because I told him I don't know how many times that I'd love to have one of those things. Lisa got lots of pots and pans and several other things. I was so glad she got to open presents this year. I swear, next year I'm going to get her LOTS and LOTS of presents! Christmas is NOT about gifts though, but it really is nice to have others open up presents I bought them. That is a gift in itself for me! I love that.
After lunch we came home. It was close to 5pm. I ate one really big plate of food and I felt really guilty lol. So after coming home, Lisa and I bundled up and we went out and did our 3 miles ;} Yup, Christmas Day and I put in my exercise! Now that is dedication, huh?!! Yup, three miles and it got dark on us too, but God brought out the moon just long enough for us to get home. That moonlight really helped us see the road. Lisa tripped several times lol. She's not a night walk person. Cody and Cooper came along and they loved it, especially Cody. That dog loves getting out there no matter what time of day. Anyway, when we got home we just relaxed the rest of the evening. We wanted to go see a movie, but it had already started and Lees decided to wait until tomorrow. So, we're just gonna relax here and play some Wii U games, watch a movie or two, then head to bed.
It was an Awesome Christmas Day! I look forward to 2015. I'm very sad we missed the Christmas Eve dinner at my Grandma and Grandpa's last night though :( apparently it was really good. Grandma said they missed us there. Damn! If only this SH*T didn't happen with my idiot sister and my mom, then everything would've been so nice :'( That makes me so mad!!!! Ok I'm getting angry again so I'm gonna sign off and get my mind off things.
Merry Christmas and Goodnight!
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