Woke up early today! I gotta say though, I was not in it today. I never got that call back about the new truck yesterday....and all day today actually. This morning, I only did 3 miles. I wanted to do all six, but my mind was way to preoccupied. I kept thinking of the new truck and how much fun I'd have on my birthday whilst driving it around! There is a shred of hope though. My dad called me this evening, well more like late afternoon. He told me he wanted to take me to breakfast tomorrow morning and asked me to pick a place. So yeah, maybe he'll surprise me!!! I sure hope so. He sounded kinda excited, almost like he was holding something back, or trying to. So needless to say, my evening was pretty exciting!
My day sure got off to a really dull start, though. I didn't complete my six miles today, only three. When I got home, Lisa was still sleeping so I went ahead and took a shower and cleaned up. She awoke sometime after. I told her that I was just not in it today, then I told her that I'd like to go up town and eat at a restaurant. She got ready and we headed out. It was crazy, we were out there driving around and I couldn't even pick a place to eat. My mind was too much on my new truck. I could not figure anything out. We almost went to the Olive Garden. We parked in the lot but it hadn't opened yet. We left because I thought of another place to eat. We didn't go there and ended up eating af Furrs. During lunch, for some reason, I sure did not feel good about myself. That whole truck thing was starting to really get me down. This was all before my dad called me too so at this point, I hadn't heard anything and I was really starting to get down. Well, I went to the bathroom at Furrs and my downer mood started making me think I was seeing bad images of myself in the mirror. So I went back out to the table feeling cruddy. I was telling Lisa that I was really feeling down and that I was scared that I was gaining more weight. She told me to check the scale to be sure. I mentioned that I was way too scared. Because of how crappy I was feeling, I was almost certain that the scale was going to say another 4 or 6 pound gain. I told her I didn't want to see it.
Well, when we got home, I was really feeling cruddy. I felt bloated. I ate a healthy lunch of fish and vegetables, but for some reason I felt really bloated. Lisa was getting ready for work. Finally, I hit rock bottom and thought really bad of myself. I basically said, 'Screw It'! I was just going to check my weight and see how much I needed to lose. I was already feeling down so there was no point in being scared anymore. Just like pulling off a bandaid. So, I went to the kitchen and got on the scale.
It read, 323lbs. (I lost 6 pounds from the last time I checked on July 14th.)
I was totally Blown Away!!!!! I immediately got happy and the entire "downer" feeling I had immediately shattered. I lost six pounds. I don't know if that 4 pound gain was fat or muscle. Lisa thinks it was muscle because that was after I had really been hittin my 6 mile walks in the morning. Well, whatever the case, I'm down 6 pounds. This is my lowest weight ever! Even when I was busting my ass in June and the beginning of July, I never got below 325 for some reason so I was super happy. I know now that my body hasn't stalled in the weight loss and now it has just fired up my determination to lose even more! Maybe I'll hit my goal of reaching the two hundred pound range by September!!!! Omg that would be Awesome!!! But, I'm taking it one day at a time. I'm gonna keep on doing what I'm doing and trust in God. I know with His help, I shall accomplish what I'm shooting for!
So I may not have gotten the truck today, but knowing I'm down six pounds, well that's a wonderful birthday present in itself. Tomorrow I turn 33 years old. This is my last night to be 32. I'm looking forward to another Awesome year! Goodnight!
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