Woke up early again today and did my 3 miles! I woke up feeling so positive today because of the great news and actions from my sister yesterday. That really lifted everyone's spirits. We're so happy and proud of her. So far so good. She's at work today so she missed service. She works early in the morning until 3pm.
The one thought that kept lingering in the back of my mind was my hunt. It started yesterday. My dad bugged me a lot about it. For him, he's all into hunting. He loves being out there. Me, honestly, I love hunting but I haven't got a deer since I was about 12 years old. That was that last time I actually bagged an animal. That is a whole sad story all on it's own. I love animals. I always have, so hunting was always hard for me. Yet, I've come to the conclusion that I do it because I want to provide food for my family, which God allows. So that's why I hunt. I have really strict rules though. I never kill baby deer, and by that I don't mean just fawns. I don't hunt anything that has less than 3 points, though I'll settle for a fork (2 horn points on each side) if he's a big, full grown deer, like the one my dad got on his hunt. Those are good too! But spike's (only 1 horn on each side) those I consider babies. My first deer was a spike. I only got that one because my dad kinda pressured me into it. I was a young idiot kid too so I didn't know any better. Well, long story short, I was not too accurate with a rifle back then and I think my scope was really off. I shot this poor baby deer several times because I kept missing. I messed it up pretty bad. I felt so so bad, I remember crying. I finally told dad to put it down for me because I couldn't hit it again. Dad shot at it again, but the bullet missed so that's how he knew the scope was way way off. I don't know what the hell happened to it. Anyway, he finally put it down for me. Since that hunt, all those years ago, I have never ever Ever bagged an animal. I always felt I was being punished for what I did to that poor little deer. All because that damn scope was off!!!! Pisses me off when I think about it. Anyway, so now I'm 33 years old and in the whole twenty one years I've tried to hunt, never have I got an animal. So needless to say, when hunting comes around, I don't really care to go because I know I won't get one. I try and try all the time. For a few years I hadn't hunted so I was pretty green. This elk hunt I went on a couple months ago, that was the first time I bow hunted in years, as I mentioned. I'm over that whole "I'm cursed in hunting" thing though. I was just a kid and I didn't know anything back then. I sure wasn't a good hunter. I think all those years, I just beat myself up over nothing. I just never tried or put my whole heart into it whenever I hunted, so that's why I never got an animal.
This year is different, way different, however! I'm on my Fyrescape right now. Fyrescape is a Journey of Change, of difference. A New Beginning! So I took my hunts seriously this year and I put my whole heart into it. I almost got an elk. Almost!! I just wasn't very skilled at bowhunting so I missed :( I know, next year if I go, I'll be better! For sure ;} I have pure confidence. I came really close so I know that it's there. Anyway, point is, I've just been so tired because of all I've been doing since that elk hunt. Then with Hallowed Eve 7 and Halloween. Now another hunt ugh lol. So I'm not too enthusiastic about it, but dad sure is. He really wants to take me out there. So last night, he asked again and I finally broke. He wanted to take me and my mom out to where I'll be hunting, this evening. So that's what we did.
After church, Lisa and I went and got some lunch because she had to go to work. Then, I went home, ate and waited. About 3:37pm, my mom and dad came by and picked me up. I had my hunting gear on. Dad let me use his rifle, the same one he got his deer with. Good thing too because I hadn't sighted mine in. We went out there. It only takes about 30 to 40 mins to get out there from here. Because of the time change last night, though, it's now getting dark a lot sooner. We got out there and only had a lil over an hour to hunt. Then, a bit after 5pm, that's when it got dark. We didn't see anything. Drove around all over, but nothing. We seen some tracks. No deer though. I had hoped that maybe we would see something, anything, but nada! Oh well, so we left and headed home about 6pm. By then it was pitch black out there. We stopped in Bloomfield and picked up some food for tomorrow. Me and dad are going out again in the morning. I guess we're gonna hunt tomorrow, Tuesday and Wednesday. That's the last day of the hunt, so hopefully I get somethin. I have confidence! Fyrescape ;}
Ok, I'm tired now so I'm going to relax a bit then hit the sheets. Long day tomorrow. Goodnight!
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