Day Three Hundred Six

Today was a scary day!

It snowed like crazy but I still went out and did 3 miles with Lisa. The walk took a while, though. It was really snowing and coming down hard. We bundled up and headed out with Cody and Cooper. Usually the walk takes about an hour and ten minutes. This time, it took almost two hours. It was muddy and slippery out there, plus it was cold as heck, but we got it done!

Now comes the scary part of the day. We headed up town and got groceries, then picked up some wood pellets at Home Depot. On our way home, to support the church, they had a Navajo Taco sale to help their building fund so we ordered two of them. We stopped by and picked them up. The Pastor came out to the truck soon as I got there. Lees went inside to get the food. Pastor came and talked to me for a long time, basically getting after me for leaving the church. That guy does not listen though. He thinks I walked away from God. I can't believe he said that to Lisa and I. We tried telling him we didn't do that, but as always he didn't listen and just talked over us. He tried telling me to come back tomorrow for church service...but it's not happening. A few nice words ain't going to change my mind. When I see that guy isn't trying to turn the church into one of his Louisiana black churches that you see on the movies, then I'll consider going back. So I am not changing my decision. He's gonna have to learn that! He thinks he knows me, but he doesn't!

I was feeling kinda cruddy about myself today, thinking I wasn't doing good in my exercising. Well to ease my mind, I've been really hitting this weight loss thing hard these past few weeks, plus I've been drinking my gallon of water everyday for a while now. So I was pretty confident in my weight loss. I wasn't planning on checking my weight until April, but because of how I was feeling, I went ahead and checked it, thinking that the weight I lost in the past 2 months would make me feel better. So I brought in my scale to the kitchen and stood on it....it said 338 :O OMG WTF!!! I gained 4 more pounds since I checked my weight last month and it said 334. That was before I started drinking my gallon of water per day and that was before I started pushing my exercises really hardcore. Since then I have been powerwalking my 3 miles. I've been lifting weights, doing lots of dead lifts and jump roping. Everyday I've been downing my gallon of water. Some days my legs are so damn sore and tired, I can barely walk. So I can NOT BELIEVE I GAINED WEIGHT!!! It makes NO SENSE! I was so scared. I didn't know what the hell I was going to do or what I needed to do. I felt like giving up. I felt cursed. I thought that there was no way I was ever going to lose weight again and I almost just gave up, for real. I text Lisa and told her, she didn't believe I put on fat or got bigger. She said right away that it was muscle. I didn't believe her, of course. But I researched it online. One thing I found was that when you first start hydrating yourself (drinking lots of water) your body will retain lots of that water. Your cells will absorb that water and make you gain water weight. Yeah sounds like ppl when they make excuses for their weight gain right? Well I truly believe that is what's going on with me. There is just no way I got fat again. I've lost so much weight in the last year now that I can't be putting it on. My eating is not bad. Since I started my hardcore exercise again, I've reverted back to my diet that I was on last summer. I been eating salads, chicken, turkey, veggies, and I've pretty much cut all the diet soda out and replaced it with water. I've drank so much water in the past several weeks now. It's the first time in my life I've done this so it was just so damn confusing how I put on weight. One thing the dieticians out there said online was to not measure your weight loss by the scales. Your weight can fluctuate and changes. The scales only measure body weight, not fat and muscle or body fat percentage. They said to NOT GIVE UP!! So after talking with Lisa and reading all this, I got my confidence back. I tried on all my clothes again to see if they didn't fit. Well guess what? All my clothes fit me just fine! Some I have more room than I did at the beginning of January. I'm going to measure by my clothes and I am not going to quit. Dammit, I'm going to push myself even harder from now on. Tomorrow is March 1st and I have two months left in my Fyrescape so freakin A I'm going to make those months count.

So that was my day! I am not ever going to quit. No matter what, I am determined to get my weight down to 200 pounds. That's my goal weight and I don't care how long it takes, I'm going to get there! That's really all I have to say for now. I finished my gallon of water this evening. I'm going to keep up with my gallon of water per day and I'm going to exercise constantly! I'm going to beat this, trust me. Fyrescape is going in to overkill mode tomorrow!!!

Day Three Hundred Five

Busy day today! Woke up, got ready and did my 3 miles! Lisa came with me. We actually walked a lil more than 3 miles today, which is good. I've got myself a new routine I'm working toward now. I'm wanting to build back up to doing 6 miles, but not like before. I'm going to power walk 3 miles, then the next 3 miles, I'm going to do on the track up top and start training myself to run long distance. I'm really getting into this whole fitness thing, like hardcore!

Finished my gallon of water again today. After the walk this morning, we got ready and headed up to town. It was such an Awesome day! I had planned to pay certain bills and it all worked out great! I got my vehicle insurance back on for both my truck and Lisa's car. Now we don't gotta worry about that. We sacrificed it for Christmas back in December and as a result, we lost our coverage and had our policy canceled. Now we got it back on finally ;} Paid our other bills and still have plenty of cash leftover for everything else. Such a wonderful day! I believe God really looked out for us today. So very happy!

It's snowing like crazy outside. I was playing with Cody, throwing snowballs at him earlier. He loves catching them with his mouth. We did that for a while. Cooper's eye is getting better, which I'm so happy about. I hate seeing him like that. He's getting back to his playful self, unlike yesterday. I don't know if I'll take him walking tomorrow. We left him home today because of his eye. Didn't want to risk it.

Tonight I did my crunches, leg lifts, and push ups. I did more than yesterday! I also did a short weights workout. My arms feel great, but super tired. I'm going to try and keep this up every evening. I've done good now for 3 days. I just wanna keep it up always. I think after a solid month of doing it, I'm really going to see a difference and feel a difference in my arms and stomach.

Well, that was my crazy busy and fun day! Waitin on Lees to get home, then I think we're gonna head up to Walmart and grab a few things. So, till tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Three Hundred Four

I got up pretty early this morning, started up the pellet stove, then got ready and headed out. Did my 3 miles alone. Lisa was still asleep and I didn't have time to wake her up. I wanted to get my walk in before my uncle came by to pick me up. I knew that if I didn't do it in the morning, that I probably wouldn't do it at all and I already took a Rest Day so I didn't want another one, not until next week sometime. Anyway, I got if finished though. So happy about that! I did a really strong powerwalk too. I was sweatin pretty bad when I got back. I did a lot of running again this morning. It's so surprising that I can run a far distance. Yesterday really surprised me! Today was the same. My body can go so much longer. I remember back in 2010, I couldn't run 15 feet. Now, I can run for almost half a mile. Still building up to it all, but I know I'll get there!

Finished my gallon of water! I'm on a mission to get Lisa to finish her gallon. It's a tough job though because she hates drinking water, as I've mentioned in past blogs. I hope she eventually gets to it.

Soon as I got back from my walk this morning, my uncle was waiting for me here at home. So I hopped right in with him and we headed to his place. I drove the truck he's going to be working on back to my place to park it a while. Afterwards, Lisa and I went to town and picked up some turkey burgers to cook for lunch. They were sooo good! The rest of the day was pretty mellow. I wanted to go up to the casino because I had nine extra bucks, but I was too tired.

This evening I did another short workout. I did crunches and push ups. Oh my gosh, my stomach was sooo sore all day today! Those leg lifts from yesterday really kicked my arse! I tried to do them again tonight, but I couldn't. My stomach was way too sore so I'm going to put it off and try again tomorrow. The rest of the workout was Awesome! I'm feeling pretty good. I'm going to keep this up everyday! Ok, it was a good day! Till tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Three Hundred Three

Today was both bad and good. Woke up this morning and did my 3 miles! Today I did more than 3 miles though. The cool thing too was that I ran. Since it snowed last night, the ground was frozen. I was just trying to hurry over the puddles and ended up jogging down hill, around the corner and all the way down. I didn't realize at first, but I had ran a really long distance and I felt I could still do so much more. I was really happy about that! I power walked thru most, then ran the rest of the way. I did great! I'm going to start adding running to my daily walk from now on. I really want to challenge myself. When I finished the whole thing, I did an extra lap. I'm planning on building back up to 6 miles again. That's going to be great! This time, however, I'm going to do it stronger and better than I did before. I'm really going to push myself to get a lot out of it.

Finished my gallon of water. Lisa didn't come walking with me today because she went out with her family. We had to haul off Grandpa's trees at 2pm today. That's what time I told grandpa we'd do it. So, I told Lisa to be home by 2. She agreed. Well, she didn't come home until after 3. I was upset, but not that bad. I have NO IDEA what her deal was, but Lisa was in a craze mode. She came home, thought I was mad at her and we ended up getting in a huge argument. She was crying and I felt so bad, but I was also angry at her for getting so crazy and causing this big huge thing. I ended up doing the trees myself. She was too mad so I brought her home, then headed to the dumb. I was really mad. It turned out ok though because we made up and things were better. Lisa felt really bad that she didn't come with me because I really did need her help out there. I got it though, then took grandpa's trailer back to his house. They were very thankful. After I got home, Lees and I had a good talk then worked everything out. She was feeling really bad, but we got thru it all. Finally, I got ready and we headed up town. We ended up going to the casino and had dinner. She surprised me with some money, which was a real treat. We ate a big chicken dinner, then I even played a few games on the machines, but I didn't win any money. I didn't repeat my stupid mistake from the other day though. I only played 8 bucks then we left. I was proud of myself. See, I don't have a gambling problem ;}

Well, the rest of the night was good. We shared an ice cream, then headed home. We got the animals fed, cleaned up the place, got the heater running and now we are pretty beat. I'm going to lay around on the couch, then eventually doze off. I am so tired. It was a long, busy, and crazy day! So glad it turned out good though. Lookin forward to tomorrow ;} So, Goodnight and Dream Sweet!!

Day Three Hundred Two - REST DAY

Ok today really wasn't supposed to be a Rest Day! However, it turned out to be that. Why? Well because we were super busy all day, and because it snowed like crazy. I'm serious, this morning it wasn't bad. It snowed last night and there was some snow on the ground, but it wasn't snowing. I called my grandpa and asked him if he wanted me to haul off his trees today and he said yes, so I woke Lisa up and we got ready. As my truck was warming up, then it started snowing and I mean Hardcore!! It snowed these big snow flurries and it just started packing up on the ground. My dogs were all anxious to go walking too. Anyway, we finally left about 8:20am and headed down there. Grandpa was just leaving when we got there. He told me what to do, then he headed off. So we hitched up his trailer, then I tried to tie the trees down because they were so big but it was snowing so hard I couldn't get it. The back of my neck was really numb. Lisa was building snow dudes while I was doing this. It was crazy! Finally, my grandma came outside and told us that grandpa called and said to just put it off until some other time. He said the roads were pretty bad and he didn't want us pulling that big trailer. So we unhitched the trailer and I talked to grandma a bit. I told her that we'd do it tomorrow. That sux! I really wish we got it done. Blah.

Anyway, we went to the casino afterwards in one of the Biggest Mistakes of 2015 already! I lost all the money I had :( Only $45 but that was all the money I had for gas. Gone! I lost it all. Oh man, I was so disappointed in myself. That was a stupid stupid stupid mistake! I was angry at myself all morning. I prayed to God and said I was sorry for doing that. It was dumb of me to go to that casino. Afterwards, we had to gather all our change. I had lots of change saved up in my coin box so we gathered all that up and headed up to Lisa's bank. We cashed it all in and got over $25. After that, we headed to Subway and got some sandwiches, then I took Lees to the college for her classes. We ate in the parking lot, then I dropped her off and headed home. I got gas in her car with the remaining money and I left $5 dollars in my wallet. Lisa and I agreed that I'd try and win something with that 5 bucks back at the casino. So I came home and did some stuff here. Got caught up on my blogs, then I organized some things. I got a lot done! Lisa's classes were over at 4:30pm. So, I didn't actually head up to the casino until almost 4. I figured with the luck I had this morning, I wouldn't be there that long. It was only $5 after all. Anyway I get up there, play my favorite game and I doubled my money ;} Yay! I only played for maybe 20 mins then I had to leave but I walked out of there with $11 instead of $5 haha. I consider that a success! Anyway, so I drive over and pick Lisa up, then we go and put in some gas. I had $6 bucks left, so we went BACK up to the casino after going home. I won some lost some. Lisa didn't do good. We just tried to win like $20 so we could go get some food. That was all. We weren't trying to hit it big or anything. We only had $6 so not a whole lot we could get out of that. Anyway, we didn't win anything, but we did have some fun. I told her that it's only fun when we win, but that's not true. Just being there trying and joking with Lisa while having free drinks (meaning diet soda) is pretty fun itself! I had a cappuccino though. It was soooo good. I haven't had one of those in a long time.

After we left, out of the blue, Lisa's mom called us and Lees told her what we were doing. She asked up to come pick her up so we did. She filled up Lisa's car with gas and she bought us a big dinner :) That was very surprising. I made some big mistakes today, but I did pray and asked God to forgive me for my stupidity. Lisa prayed as well. We still ended up getting gas in both our vehicles, we had a fun day, along with a great Subway lunch, and a really big dinner that left us so full that Lisa is already in bed this early and I'm going to head to bed also. God really does watch out for us. I'm so thankful to Him for everything. It was a very wonderful day! It turned out really good. As for me, I will NEVER make the stupid mistake I made today. The only time I'll ever go up there is if I have no money and like $10 or less. If I have more than that, no way! Dangerous place, but I know I can control myself. Actually I've done it all this time. I know when to quit. I don't know what happened today, it just got away from me. So bad!

Anyway we watched 'Wreck-It Ralph' and ate dinner. Lisa then fell asleep on the couch. I cleaned out the pellet stove. I had that thing running all day today because it was cold and snowing all day. It stopped now. The clouds are all gone and the stars are out so I'm guessing it'll be clear tomorrow. I called grandpa and told him that we'd haul off the trees tomorrow afternoon about 2. Lisa will be busy tomorrow morning so I wanted to do it later when she gets home. So that's our plan! Ok right now, I'm totally beat and I'm going to sleep. It's been a long fun day. Oh, I may not have exercised today but I finished my gallon of water Woohoo!! I'm glad I got that done at least! Still keeping that up daily now and I'm going to try and do it from now on. Ok, until tomorrow, Goodnight!

Day Three Hundred One

Waking up to a nice clean house was Awesome!! It looked so nice last night so when I woke up this morning, before getting ready to go walk, I cleaned up the kitchen again and my living room and fired up my pellet stove! This place looks so good, so does my bathroom haha. My weight room is lookin so Awesome as well!

We went out and did 3 miles today! Also, I finished my gallon of water again. I finished it pretty early today! I was still thirsty this evening. You know one of the best things about drinking all the water I'm drinking now? It's taking my cravings away. I'm not hungry so much, also and this is a huge bonus, I don't crave soda or iced tea. For years that's all I drank everyday was sweet iced tea. I drank that stuff by the ton everyday. I couldn't get enough of it. That was my favorite drink on the planet. Well since I started Fyrescape last April, I pretty much gave that up. I hadn't had any iced tea until my slack off months of November and December. Then I was drinking it, but since I got serious again last month, I've once again sworn it off. Also, last month was when I started the gallon of water per day, I believe. Wow, has it been that long?! Dang!! Anyway since I did start, I've pretty much laid off all the diet sodas I was drinking too. The only time I'll have a small cup of diet soda is at night after I'm all full of water. I'll have a small cup but I don't always finish it. So that's really good for me! I'm just all water and light foods now. We're only gotten Subway every time we feel like eating out or getting something in town. No more burgers, pizza, or any of the bad stuff. It's either Subway, turkey burgers, veggies, fish, chicken, salads, and a whole lot of water! Lisa is still working on her gallon per day. She's really got a problem drinking water. She doesn't like it so it's really hard for her. I'm going to keep pushing her though. She needs it just as much as anyone else so hopefully I can get her to start downing a gallon per day by the end of this winter season, but it's a long shot.

I almost finished cleaning my room today. I cleaned some, but it got so cold this evening. Looks like a snow storm is moving in. I was so tired this evening so I didn't finish my room. I'll try tomorrow if I can get some time. I've gotta haul off some trees for grandpa tomorrow morning. All those tree limbs we cut down on Saturday, they're all on his flatbed trailer so I agreed to haul them off. We were going to do it this morning, but it snowed last night and the roads were pretty bad. When Lisa and I did our walk this morning, it was snowing and everything. I was telling her, "Dang everyone is sitting in their homes all warm and toasty, or sitting in their heated offices at work, and here you and I are out here getting our exercise in!" That's what you call motivated ;}

Anyway, so tomorrow we're going to haul off trees. Hopefully the snow isn't too bad. I'm just glad it finally did snow. It was getting so warm outside that the damn bugs were starting to come out. Me, I'm not ready for it to be warm yet. I'm still trying to enjoy WINTER! Summer and Spring, that ain't for a while yet, so come on, Drop All The Snow You Want!!! One more thing, the other day lifting weights, I pulled a muscle in my left arm. Dang it really hurt! I couldn't outstretch my arm for a couple days so I didn't do any heavy lifting the last couple days. Don't wanna injure myself severe! Ok well that is all. Time to relax and probably fall asleep on the couch lol. Goodnight!

Day Three Hundred

300 Days of Fyrescape!!! WOW!!!

This is definitely a milestone for me. I can't believe I've been at exercising and losing weight, along with eating so much better and watching calories, basically living a much MUCH healthier lifestyle, for this long! It's Amazing and I thank God that He has blessed me with the strength and the drive to do this everyday! I will admit, I really slacked off the end of last year, but that was only because I was so busy doing work at the church so I can't feel too bad about that. I've been back on the horse since last month now and I can really feel the changes in my body! My knee is much stronger and I'm feeling lighter. I haven't checked my weight and I'm not going to. I'm just going to keep working everyday and get it all done, then come April, I'm planning to really hit it hard since that'll be my last day in my first year of Fyrescape. I've decided too that come April 29, 2015, that will be the start of my Fyrescape 2. That one will be much more intense. Then, I hit the big time on April 29, 2016! That's when Fyrescape 3 starts and I haven't decided what that one will be, but it's gonna be BIG!!! I'm super excited at where I'll be by then. So far, this 300 days has been very Awesome. Fyrescape wasn't just about weight loss and getting healthy, it was about gaining Mental health as well, meaning learning about myself, my life, and figuring things out. I've been doing that daily! Just the other day, I realized what all the mistakes were that lead me to losing myself for those years and putting on so much weight. I've learned that I need to let go of so many things from my past because that's done nothing for me but distract me from moving forward. Fyrescape is the Journey Back to Excellence!! So I'm really coming along well. I'm hoping that this next 65 days really does wonders for me. I'm almost at my year mark. I hope to be somewhere great by then! Until then, I will continue to push myself daily and just keep going! That's my best advice to anyone. Just Keep Going, No Matter What, Never Give Up!!!

Did my 3 miles today! Lisa came out with me this time. She was pretty upset that she didn't get to do it on Friday, or yesterday because we were working, so today she was delighted to be out there. I also finished my gallon of water once again. I'm really getting used to that. I'm actually drinking more than a gallon now. Sometimes, I'll finish all my water and then my body craves more later on in the evening so I'll have another cup before I go to bed. It's been Awesome!

FINALLY CLEANED MY PLACE TODAY WOOHOO!!!! I cleaned out my weight room this evening. I really cleaned it and wiped everything down now it's lookin really spiffy! The Big one was my bathroom. I cleaned it really really good! Oh man, my sink is white now. I cleaned the heck out of the whole thing. Now my bathroom and my weight room look so nice! I can't wait to use my bowflex now along with my exercise bike, ab lounge and other weights. I'm very proud of myself! Tomorrow, I gotta clean up my room, then my place will be lookin Superb ;} Ok, Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Nine - Cutting Down Grandpa's Tree

Wow what a day! We went to Granpa's this morning. My dad, mom and brother, along with his friend, were already down there. It was so much work too. That tree was/is HUGE! It's been there since my mom and dad got married 33 years ago, I found out. My grandma said that's when they planted it. A few days after they got married. I couldn't believe that. I don't see why grandpa wanted to cut it down. I couldn't have done that. No way no how! That would've been to much sentimental value for me to just give up.

Anyway, so I didn't get my walk in. We were there most the day until late afternoon. Oh man it was kinda chilly out there. Cloudy and really cool. Looks like it was going to rain or snow, in fact it did a lil this evening. I did some curls with my weights this evening. Also, I finished my gallon of water. It was a pretty good day. Fulfilling day that's for sure. Everyone went down there to help. My uncle and his family. My cousins, even my aunt and her family were down there. Everyone had a great time! I was glad to see everyone because since I resigned from my church, I haven't really seen anyone. It's been a couple months. I'm just glad everyone is doing ok still.

So that was my day. Busy busy! Tomorrow I'm going to get my walk in and do some good exercise! Also, I'm planning on getting my jeep running. I was looking at it tonight. I can't wait to get it running. It's gonna be Awesome!! Ok, till tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Eight

Woke up and did 3 miles this morning! I went it alone today because Lisa had a meeting this morning. When I got back, I did some weightlifting outside. Oh man I was really sweatin. I pushed it pretty hard out there today. It was Awesome!!

The rest of my day was fairly dull. Not much happened at all so nadda to report. I really need to clean up my place. Been wanting to do that for a while now. Hopefully soon. Also, finished my gallon of water once again today ;} So proud of myself. I don't know how long it's been to this day. I'll have to go back in my blogs and mark the day because I've been posting it every time I did.

Well tomorrow we gotta go and do some work down at my grandpa's house so I doubt I'll get my walk in. That'll be in place of my exercise though. We'll be cutting down this huge tree. Lots of hauling, walking, and cutting so that should do me good ;} Ok until tomorrow, Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Seven - REST DAY

Yup, today was much needed! Dang my heal on my right foot was really bothering me yesterday. Mucho needed Rest Day. Oh and before I forget to post it, Lisa messed up her knee yesterday! She wanted me to put it in my blog, yesterday but I had already posted it. She wants to keep track of when she injured it. I don't know how or what she did. She said she was playing football yesterday with the kids at her work, so I'm guessing she twisted it wrong, or ran on it wrong. Something! Anyway, as for me, I'm feeling really good right now. Had a great day!

Finished my gallon of water. Dang I'm so proud of myself. I drink a gallon a day and that is just so Awesome! I have never done that in my life. My body really does feel great. I'm lookin forward to how this makes my body perform in the coming months. I've also decided on what's going to happen on April 29th of this year, which is when my Fyrescape started last year. Well, this year is going to be Fyrescape II ;} That one is going to be much more extreme. I'm going to do DDP yoga daily starting on April 29, 2015. We'll see where that gets me in a year. On April 28, 2016 we shall see where I am ;} It's exciting! I'm very much looking forward to it. Right now, I'm still lifting weights, jump roping, doing my 3 miles per day and adding some running along with my power walking. I feel like I'm really doing good, plus my diet has really been Awesome! Granted, yesterday I ate a bunch of chips because there wasn't anything else to eat. That I did regret though because it made me sick, yuck! My stomach felt really not good afterwards. I was really craving a salad or a sandwich with all the veggies. Oh man, that sounds great!

Well, we hauled off trash for grandpa this morning, Lisa and I. We were both so tired though. We fell asleep in the living room last night and woke up about 3:30 this morning. We both went to bed, then had to wake up at 7 so we could get everything together and head over to grandpa's house at 8am. Dang, I felt bad for Lisa because she had to go to school at 1pm, then she had to head to work right after. Now tomorrow morning, she's got a meeting at 8am. So yeah, she's got her hands full now. On Saturday morning, we're heading over to grandpa's again and we're going to help take a big tree out of his front yard :( It's so sad, I wish he wouldn't do that, because that tree has been there for years and years. I used to climb that tree when I was just a kid. I guess it's getting too big so now he doesn't want it anymore because he's afraid it'll start growing into his house underneath. Understandable. But dang, that tree would just have way to much sentimental value to me. I wouldn't do it, if it were my tree. I wish we could pull it out in one piece and replant it over here at my place! I would really love that, but I'm sure that is not possible.

Ok that is about all I've got for today. I'm going to post this blog, then go lounge in the living room and watch a movie while I wait for Lisa to come home. She's getting off here in a couple hours. Lookin forward to tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Six

Woke up this morning and had a slight bit of emergency with one of my bills. Ugh I hate that! Yeah today sucked really bad! When we got back, we got ready, then went and did 3 miles. It was pretty late when we went out, but I'm just glad we did it. I wish we hadn't though, only because Lisa had to work today and we went out to walk pretty late. I hated that she didn't have time to relax before work. Soon as we got home, she had to race to town to pick up her grandma and drive her home since she didn't have a ride. So it was a hectic day for us! My heal was really sore today, I don't know why. It was throbbing most the day and just plain bothering me. I hate that!

Finished my gallon of water again. You know, I've been drinking it over the course of the day. I think I should start drinking it earlier, that way I won't be waking up in middle of the night to use the bathroom. So tomorrow, I'm going to try that!

My grandpa and grandma came by my place today. It was so nice to see them! We talked about our, well their church. I resigned so it's not really my church anymore, though I haven't turned in my official resignation papers yet due to our printer being out of ink. Anyway, they feel the same way about the pastor. I used to have high opinions of that guy, but when he started trying to butt into my personal life thru my facebook, I hated that. Then, he's over there getting a lil too close with my mom, and I really hate that, so does my dad. Now he's wanting to change so many things in the church. He's not worried about bringing God's word to the people and bringing those lost, closer to Him. No, he's worried about having fancy chairs in the church, and a nice fancy carpet, and nice painted walls, and he wants to change the name. That is all that guy is focused on now! He completely lost his way, I believe. That is why I left! I have so many wonderful memories at that church. This guy, he wants one of those Louisiana churches where there's lots of African American people and they jump and scream and holler, singing until the evening then doing a sermon where people shout in agreement. One of those type churches, you've seen them in the movies. That is what he wants with our church. He's an African American and I believe that's the style of church he wants. The thing is, our church is an Indian Church. That's the name, First Indian Baptist Church. It's always been that way. Our church tries to bring in all the people from the reservation and the Native Americans out there who don't know God. There are so many churches around here. Ours is very unique and that's what we love most about it. That crazy "pastor" we had last year who almost stole it away from us, he wanted to do the same thing. He hated the "Indian" in the name and wanted to change it. He tried kicking all of us, the members, out of the church. He wanted it all for himself so he can turn the building into a shelter and make money off of it, apparently. He was an ex-con and was still being watched by the FBI. None of which he informed us of. I had to find his mugshot on the internet. He lied about it all even after we confronted him. He wouldn't leave the church. He used every excuse he could and hid behind every dumb reason. All the while this was happening, we tried getting help from the Baptist Association, but that guy who heads up that place is/was buddies with this crazy guy so he didn't help us at all. We almost lost the church, but we got help from ppl from other cities and towns who really believed in all of us. It was great! Finally, that guy gave up and left on his own. Now, a year later, another pastor we hired last year is doing pretty much the same exact thing as that guy. The only difference is, this pastor is doing it in a "nicer" way. He's trying to sway everyone else to do what he wants using "nice and uplifting" words. Seems like all he's focused on now. It's just crazy! I don't know why they're turning out like this. They need to just stick with preaching. That was his only job. That's what we hired him for. Anyway, that's why I left. I wasn't about to go thru the same thing again. Only because I tried telling my mom what he was doing, but she just got mad at me. She really likes him, I know so does everyone else. So she said she's in total support of anything he wants to do. That pissed me off! She doesn't care to listen to her own son, she never has. She did the same thing last year. Before that crazy "pastor" got really out of hand, I tried telling her that we needed to get rid of him because he seemed like a bad guy. I refused to go back to church after I saw him act that way. She didn't listen. She said the same thing about him. She said that she "didn't mind changes" and that "he wasn't doing anything wrong". Well she sure found out the hard way. It wasn't until a month later when the members were leaving and things were getting really bad that she finally opened her stupid eyes and saw everything. But even then, she never told me that I was right, nor has she ever said that she should have listened to me. Anyway, she's doing the exact same thing now, so I left and decided that I am not going to sit around and watch this crap happen all over again, not to the church I love so much. They do whatever they want, but I'm not going to watch it. I refuse!

Anyway, I went a bit overboard in writing there. That just really gets to me, that whole subject. Anyway grandpa was talking to me about it. He's in agreement with me. He feels the same way about the pastor there. So we all talked about it. They're going to have a meeting soon about whether to hire him as full time pastor or keep him as an interim. I would say to NOT hire this guy as full time pastor. Either keep him as in interim or LET HIM GO! I don't trust him. He lost his focus! That's my opinion and I'm really good at reading ppl.

Ok, well that's all for now. I've written too much here. I'm going to relax and hopefully get a good nights rest tonight. I'm really tired. I need to get something to eat. Been a long day. Tomorrow I'm going to do some work for my grandpa, hauling off his trash, as well as mine. We're starting right at 8am so I think I'll turn in early tonight. So, till tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Five

Today was...well it was Great! That's all I'm going to say ;}

Woke up this morning, did my 3 miles with Lisa. Dang my legs are still pretty tired though. Sore, like crazy! It took me a while to build up some swiftness in my walk this morning. My legs were wobbly and shaking. But, I did manage to build up to it and get it done! I didn't do any weightlifting today. I told myself yesterday that there was no way I was going to do it today. Tomorrow, hopefully!

Finished my gallon of water. Dang I really hate the negative side of drinking all that water. You constantly have to go to the bathroom! Water just runs right out of me. Here I was thinking that only happened with me. I talked with my dad the other day. Before I even brought it up, he asked me if I had that problem too. I'm like, 'YES'! He said he's got the same thing happening to him all the time. Lisa also said the same thing. So I guess it's normal.

Rest of the day was fun. Lees and I went up to the casino and had lunch. Then we played a bit and won some coin. She won $33 and I won $33. That was cool, but I put mine back into the machines. I was trying to really hit it big and win one of those high dollar jackpots I'm always reading about, but Nadda! One day though. I feel that my time is coming ;} Anyway, Lisa went with her mom, who was nice enough to buy us some food and a sandwich from Subway so that was my dinner tonight. I nice, healthy Subway sandwich. I was so full of water from the day so I treated myself to a caffeine free Diet Pepsi. Sooo good!!!

Now I'm super tired. I think I'm going to turn in early tonight. It's cold out too, but not as bad as yesterday. Anyway, until tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Four

Ok the one thing I can say about today....IT WAS A TOUGH DAY OF EXERCISE!!!!

We got up this morning and headed out. Did 3 miles, but oh my gosh did I push myself. I was really powerwalking the entire way. My legs got so tired, but I kept the pace as best I could. It was very hard. Lisa had to run to keep up with me at certain points. When we got back, she did DDP yoga and I did my weights. I did 30 deadlifts today! I also did some jump roping. Oh man, I can't tell you how freakin sore and tired my legs are. We went to town today and I was practically hobbling around. My legs were so tired and worn out, but I feel Amazing!! Lisa got in a really good workout too! I can say, we are doing Awesome!! I'm very proud of what we're doing. As you can see in my blogs too, my Rest Days are far apart now. I'm going to keep that up. Geez back in November, I was taking so many days off that I didn't even put 'Rest Day' in there anymore otherwise you would've saw a Rest Day almost every other day. That was really bad! Like I mentioned yesterday, I really dropped the ball then and I let myself and Lisa down. No more though! We're really kickin arse out there! Today was just really good. Even right now, my legs are still so tired and sore. I think tomorrow I'm just going to do my 3 miles, that's it. I'm going to take a day off from weightlifting. I don't think my legs would be able to do anything anyway, but we'll see!

Finished my gallon of water! I'm going to make note of that in every blog so I can be sure to know when I started and how long I've kept it up! Drink water, ppl! It does wonders!! Everything you hear about it, it's all true! Trust me.

Got the dog food for my boys outside, and cat food for my cats. Oh and not to mention, my little Chihuahua lol. I can never forget her. Anyway, I could barely walk in town. My legs were so worn out, it was a chore just trying to get out of the car, much less walking all around in the stores. Crazy! I can't wait to sleep tonight. Brrrr it's pretty cold out tonight! I hear that over on the eastern part of the country, they're getting hit with Blizzard type weather with snow and everything. Shoot over here, nadda!! It's like spring time over here. The bugs are already coming out! Today, however, it was windy and right now, it's pretty cold. Definitely gonna fire up my Pellet Stove soon as I'm done here. I got a bunch of wood pellets at Home Depot. Dang it was a chore unloading them though. My legs barely held it together haha. Ok, time for me to rest up. I've gotta go feed my animals now. So until tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Three

Back at it today! Did my 3 miles this morning. I'm walking super fast now and I'm really putting more running in there as well. Oh my gosh, by the time we get home, my legs are burning. I ain't doing no sissy stroll anymore. I'm doing some heavy powerwalking. When we got home, also, I did some weightlifting. I could only do 10 deadlifts today. Oh man, my legs were still tired from two days ago, can you believe that. I did some jump roping also. Lisa did some yoga outside. I can say this, we are really hitting our workouts hard!

Finished my gallon of water today! So proud and I can honestly say that my diet has really kicked into high gear. I've sworn off fast food, unless it's Subway or Arbys sandwiches. I sworn off hamburger. I only eat turkey burgers, salmon, salad, peanuts, water, oatmeal, and vegetables. That's pretty much in my diet now. It varies and I add other stuff in there as well. I'm really getting serious about all of this. I don't want to let myself slip ever again like I did in November and December. Actually, October too. I thought about that today and I feel so bad. Because I dropped the ball, Lisa ended up stopping as well. She's my tail, she does whatever I do and follows me wherever I go. If I stop or slack off, she'll be right behind me doing the same thing. I need to never again let myself slip because I want us both to drop lots more weight and get very healthy, especially her because she's going to be starting nursing school this fall, hopefully. I'd love for her to be in good shape by then.

Well I've got nothing new to report today. Didn't do much, just hung out the rest of the day. We were supposed to go to town this morning and get some dog food, cat food and wood pellets, but we got too comfortable here at home watching movies. I was very tired after our workout this morning anyway. I didn't feel much like getting back out there and walking around. We decided to do it tomorrow! Ok, time for me to get some rest. Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety Two - REST DAY

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!

Much needed Rest Day today! Oh man, I've been out there pushing it the last several days. My legs are so worn out. I got up this morning and thought, today is gonna be that day when I just relax, so I did. I just wish I had something to do on this day. No girlfriend, so Valentines Day isn't all that special to me. Just me and Lisa. I don't even have any money to do anything. We're so broke after last payday, it's not even funny. But, the good thing is that I've got a handle on my bills. Just a few more paychecks should get us even and taken care of! I can't wait for that day, honestly.

Well, no exercise today but I once again finished my gallon of water. That is totally becoming a regular thing for me now. I'm so proud of myself. Everyday I finish my entire gallon. So cool! Anyway, this evening I went out to dinner with my parents and my lil bro. Of course, my sister was not there! I don't know what she's doing these days. Last time I talked with her was the beginning of January, so yeah no idea what's goin on there. I don't really care much anymore. She can do whatever the hell she wants. I'm not going to give it a second thought. She's really disappointed me with her actions and the worst part, she doesn't really give a crap. Oh well!

As for our money situation. This morning, Lees and I did some heavy brainstorming. I believe God gave us the ideas to handle everything, so we did. I made one more arrangement with my Directv and Lisa made an arrangement with her school payments and we got an extra $123 dollars to spend for ourselves. God provided! That was Amazing! The Good Lord really does watch out for us always. As long as you keep you faith in Him, He shall never leave your side. Right away, we went up town and got some groceries. Didn't have time to get the animals food so we'll do that tomorrow. It was a great afternoon though.

Ok, I've got some cleaning to do now so I'm going to sign off. It's been a good day. I'm glad I got to do something at least. One day I hope to spend Valentine's Day with a woman I'm completely in love with and do the whole nine yards! That would be Awesome!! Anyway, that's all for today. Hope the day went Awesome for you who are reading this. Be safe and Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety One

BAD BAD BAD!!!!!

Today was so bad :( I feel so defeated! Why, because we're already broke! Can you believe that?! We are completely broke already. It's so bad!

This morning, we woke up early and did our 3 miles. I walked it pretty hard because we were in a hurry to get back. We didn't slack off though. When we got back, we both did some weightlifting and jump rope. I wanted to get my full workout in today. It helped ease my mind also because I knew the bills were going to be dealt with later on.

Afterwards, we got ready, then headed to town. You know, I had this big plan that I made earlier in the week. I was excited to get my propane bottle out back filled up so we could finally have hot water. I was planning to sacrifice the cell phone bill and let them go off for a couple weeks so we could get the other stuff including our insurance turned back on. Well that whole plan went to shit! The lady at the gas company lied to me. She didn't give me an accurate price so it ended up costing more than what I had so I couldn't get it. That just ruined all my plans. Then, my insurance wouldn't let me start a new policy unless I paid more money! So that messed up my plans even more! I was so mad, but I did get everything worked out. I was on the phone all morning with everyone. I worked out all my bills and now my insurance will be turned back on in two weeks on the 27th. I made arrangements for all my other bills and I paid for my cell phone bill. That is good too. At least our phones won't go off now. I think Lisa was glad of that. Only negative side was that we weren't able to get our gas so no hot water. That really made me mad! I wish that crazy woman gave me the right price. ugh I was so mad!! Anyway, I took care of everything but the big shit problem, it took ALL OF OUR MONEY! We are completely broke and I have no idea what we're going to do. I'm very scared because we're out of food. My dogs will be out of food in about a week, and my cats are out of food. Also, we're low on wood pellets! So yeah, I'm in a pretty bad bind right now. I just hope I can get us out of it. I shall leave it in God's hands. Hopefully we get by ok.

Ok, I finished my gallon of water today, as I do everyday now. I'm just glad I'm keeping up with my workouts, despite what we go thru with the bills and the hard times. Always gotta stay positive. Bad things always get better. Just takes patience, and a positive attitude. That does wonders ;} Ok, time for rest now. Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Ninety

Today was hard! I walked my 3 miles really tough so by the time we were done, my walking was really slow. My legs were really tired. Lisa was speedy Gonzales once we got done. She was walking really fast. At first I thought she was trying to compete with me, then I thought she was mad lol. But it turns out, she hates when I "talk too much after our walks" and she was "apparently" in a hurry today because she had to go to class early, then work right after. Blah blah blah :O

Finished my gallon of water today. I'm really trying to get Lisa to finish hers but it's so hard for her. She's been working on one single gallon for the last few days now. She drinks a little bit, then a little more. I keep telling her, you need to finish the WHOLE gallon everyday! It's tough for her, she's not a water drinker.

Well tomorrow is payday. Got bills to take care of. I really hate that because we have so many bills, mainly because of Christmas. We sacrificed all our bills so we could have a good holiday and that didn't even do a thing for us. We still had a crappy holiday with no money. We couldn't afford to buy anyone gifts, which is why we held that dinner a few weeks ago. That was our Christmas gift to the family. I felt so cheap! Anyway, we're still trying to get on our feet after all those sacrificed bills. I don't know how tomorrow is going to go, but we'll definitely see what we see. I'm scared, honestly. I really don't know if we're going to get thru it in a positive way.

Ok, I'm going to warm up the place now. Getting kinda nippy in here. Then I'm going to relax on my couch and wait for Lisa to come home. Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Eighty Nine

Up early this morning. Went out and did my 3 miles. It was pretty good! We really pushed it once again. I'm going to just keep pushing myself everyday from now on till April 28th. That'll be my year of Fyrescape! I really hope I've made a big improvement by that point. It doesn't stop there, though. That's just my year marker. I don't know if I'll continue this blog after that day. I might, but we'll see. I have some time to think about it.

Finished my gallon of water once again. I'm so proud of myself. You know, even back when I first started Fyrescape, I was drinking water, but I was nowhere near drinking a gallon per day. I was drinking like two or three cups, that's it. It wasn't until July or August that I got myself a gallon jug and began to fill that thing up and try to finish it. Even when I did, I never finished the whole jug. Last month when I decided to get serious once again, that's when I started training myself. It took me 3 weeks to be able to finish a gallon per day. Now, I've been at it for a few days and I'm going to keep it up. It's Awesome!

Well not much else happened today. Kind of a dull day. Hopefully this Friday is going to be good though. We got bills to pay and I'm looking forward to spending some money. It's so boring when we don't got cash. I can't even buy the movies I wanted. Sux! Ok well it's time for me to go relax the evening. Been a long day! So until tomorrow ;} Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Eighty Eight

Today has been Awesome! I've been drinking a gallon of water per day for a few days now. Oh man, my body feels Great!! Water really does wonders, let me tell you! Everything you hear about it, it's all true. I did 3 miles this morning, this time by myself. Lisa had to go to school early, but she's off today and tomorrow. I did a really fast pace walk and my legs were super tired, but I felt great afterwards! My body feels really cleansed. I feel lighter and when I took a shower this morning, I felt leaner than before. It's Awesome!!

After getting cleaned up, I went up and took some movies back to Front Row Seat. Lisa reserved two movies for me last night and I picked them up today. I used my store credit so I only paid .51 cents for them ;} Now these are two movies that I really WANT to buy! I've seen both of them. I planned on buying them both today, but I don't have the money. I have to wait until Friday to buy them, so for now I just rented them so Lisa could enjoy them on her days off. I got, Nightcrawler, and 'Alexander and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. Two very Awesome movies that I enjoyed in the theaters, especially the latter. That one is really good!

After I picked up the movies, I went and got me some lunch at Subway. My diet is getting back to the strictness it was last summer and my body is starting to feel as great as it did then too. The only "fast food" places I'm going to get chow at from now on, are Subway and Arbys. Both are sandwich places. That was my restriction last summer also. This past November and December, I completely went off my restriction. Well, that was my 'Off Season' so it's cool! Back to it though, from now on throughout the rest of the year.

Well I was going to do some extra exercises today. I still might. I think I'll do some light bowflex workout this evening. I just wanted to write this blog early and get it over with. So far, the day has been excellent. Hopefully tomorrow is just as great! Got lots to do, especially around here. Hope the rest of your day goes Awesome! Be safe.

Day Two Hundred Eighty Seven

Today was definitely an awakening, of sorts. I did my 3 miles this morning. Lees and I walked it strong again. Oh man, my legs were burning. We had a good long talk about things. For some reason, I woke up thinking about my first serious relationship I had. I talked with Lisa about it and really realized some things. It was crazy! I wrote a big blog about it all. I'm not going to get into it here, though. It's on my other blog, but it was a very crazy time back then for me. I will say, however, that while writing that blog, it was like I relived it all over again. That was crazy! To experience in your mind about your first love and all the things you went thru with her. Crazy!

So, that is really all I have to say for this crazy day. I finished my gallon of water again! We have been eating vegetable soup for the last two days. It's good! Way better than burgers or any of the fatty stuff that I allowed myself to eat the end of last year! Oh man, I really kept having to run to the bathroom though lol. That soup and water really did me in all day long. Yesterday was like that too. I need to get back to solid foods so I won't have that problem so bad haha.

Anyway, I'm going to clean up the place now and go out and feed my animals. It's been a pretty ok day. Strange, in a way, but pretty ok! Goodnight ;}

Day Two Hundred Eighty Six

Woke up early and did a strong 3 miles. My legs feel great and like they're really getting a workout out there! Surprisingly too, my knee is feeling strong. It's not bothering me. I can lift it up now without feeling any discomfort. I'm not pushing it though. I don't want it to go haywire again so I'm just being cautious and not over working it just yet.

Lisa started running today! She's been looking forward to this for a while now. She's starting off running a mile. It's crazy how she does that. She hasn't ran in a long time, yet at any given moment, she can just go out there and run one to two miles nonstop. That is a really great gift she's got. I hope she capitalizes on it from here on out.

I drank my gallon of water again today. It's Awesome to say I finally finish it lol. I swear, I've been trying for a couple weeks to finish the full gallon, but I never could. Once I did, however, now I can do it everyday. It's Awesome!!

Well that's about all for today. Not much going on, or happening. So, now it's time to relax and fire up my pellet stove. It's kinda chilly tonight! Goodnight ;}

Day Two Hundred Eighty Five

I woke up early, but Lisa did not. We didn't get out there walking until about 9:30 or so, which is way too late. I like doing it early. Anyway, we did 3 miles! My legs are tired and I was really burning when we got back. It's Awesome! I can't wait to do 6 miles again, but that is going to be an occasional thing with me. My routine is going to change. I'm going to start doing 3 miles every morning, then throughout the day I'm going to do sit-ups, crunches, leg lifts, and stretches, then in the evening I'm going to mix it up doing DDP yoga and my Bowflex workouts. That's my new routine, rather than before I just did a straight 6 miles and that was all I did. I want to add other workouts in there doing other things and working out other parts of my body.

Big news today, I finished my gallon of water!!!! Yay!!!! Finally, I finished the whole gallon. I feel so proud lol. I've been trying for about 2 weeks now to finish the whole gallon, but I just couldn't do it. Now I'm really going to try harder. I want this to be an everyday thing. Last summer I was drinking a lot of water and that really helped me in my weight loss and it kept my hydrated, which is super important when you're working your body like this.

Not much else happened today. This evening I went to Front Row Seat and rented some movies. I hadn't done that in a long time. I have been really reckless with money. I have been making the stupid mistake of buying movies that I had no idea how they were. I had never seen them, and here I was buying them paying 19 to 24 dollars and here they turned out to be really stupid and boring. Just a waste of money! Well now I'm being smart and the only movies I'm buying are ones that I want to own because I've seen them and they are really good. Some examples of duds that I bought were OCULOUS, FURY, Transcendence, Lone Survivor (which was good, but it's not something I would watch over and over again), and No Good Deed. Those movies were a waste of money to me. So right now, I'm never doing that again. This time, I'm going to rent it first. So I did. I rented, As Above, So Below (which I wanted to buy but never did because I didn't have the money at the time and good thing too because I would never want to see it again), and Leprechaun Origins, which really sucked and I hated it. Also, A Walk Among The Tombstones, which was good, but I hated the ending and would've hated it if I bought it. I also rented Dawn of the Planet of the Apes. I've already seen that one and I thought it was good, but never bought it. Just felt like seeing it again.

Anyway, that's what I did. Saw this really hot girl who worked at Front Row Seat. She was really nice looking. We talked a bit while I was getting my movies. Maybe I can get to know her more so I'm going to keep renting ;} Anyway, now I'm going to relax and wait for Lisa to get home. It's so quiet around here when she's not around. I wish my cats and dogs could talk lol. Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Eighty Four

Today was a pretty mellow day. Got up, did my 3 miles this morning. It was good! Lisa came with me. She's really wanting to start running. She's ready to roll and really get to losing weight. She has so much potential in exercise. Seriously, that girl can run! She's not in shape, she has a long road ahead of her, but let me tell you, she used to run back when she was a kid in Middle School. She was a cross country runner. Somehow, that gift of running stayed with her. She may not be in shape and has extra weight on her, but she can outrun anyone, even some runners who have been running for years. At any given moment, she could take off and run one, even two miles non stop. I could never do that! I'm still trying to build myself up to running half a mile non stop and I've been at this since April 28, 2014. That is really only because my weight was really high and I had no idea until that day. So because of that, I didn't want to wear out my knees right away by pushing myself too hard. I need to go very slow and slowly work my way up to it as my weight drops. Now, I've dropped a lot of weight, but I don't feel I'm at a place where I can really start a daily running routine, also since both November and December are now officially my Off Season. That's what I call them. Every person working out will have an off season, especially if they've been at it for a long time. I have been! Since April 28th of last year, I had been busting my ass everyday. I started off walking 5 miles, to beefing it up to 6 miles per day. I did great and I've lost so much weight. Once the end of the year came around, however, I really began to slack in my routine. My walks had to be cut down to 3 miles because my knees were really bad because of my accident where I tripped and tumbled up at Chama during my Elk Hunt in September. That really crapped out my knee for a while. After I got home, I still did 6 miles but my knee was really bothering me so I had to take some time off. I think I took about a week off of exercising to let myself heal up, after that I really took it easy out there. I didn't walk to fast, just kept my legs mobile but didn't really push myself. I did that thru the end of October, then throughout November and December. Once January hit, I realized I needed to get back out there and start hitting it hard again because the scale says I put back on some weight. I did that because my eating restrictions kinda went out the window during the holidays. Well, now I'm back on the eating restrictions and I've been pushing myself really hard. Every morning after my walks, I'm sweatin bad and my legs are super tired! It feels great. I'm also drinking lots of water daily. I'm still trying to finish off my gallon per day. Almost there, but not quite.

Anyway, Lisa is doing great! I'm going to push her until she gets to her goals, just like I have pushed her throughout her life and with that, she's doing Amazing! She'll be applying for the Nursing Program this year after getting all her classes done. She's maintained a 4.0 GPA while having a full time job. She's really getting it done out there and I'm so proud of her!

Now, it's time for me to start working on myself and that's what Fyrescape is all about. Little under 3 months left and I'm really going to get busy ;} Well, that is all for today! Goodnight.

Day Two Hundred Eighty Three - REST DAY

Well, today I took an early Rest Day. I didn't want to, but Lisa was still acting up this morning and that really just put me out of the mood to go exercise. When you're not focused, you really can't do anything, or atleast that's how I am. I just stayed in bed! I swear, she got so distant yesterday and did not talk to me at all the whole day. Just locked herself in her room and didn't come out. I was so aggravated that I left last night and went for a drive. I just needed to get out of the house. We were supposed to do so many things yesterday too. We planned to go to a movie, do laundry, maybe go eat out or something. Here she was just mad all day. Then this morning, I heard her walking around. I swear, I almost thought she was going to move out.

Anyway, she called me a bit after she left this morning. Finally, after a whole day passes, she finally talks to me and says she sorry about everything. We had a long talk and really got everything out in the open. She finally realizes that I was just trying to protect her and she realizes what she did was wrong, coming outside like that. We have neighbors and little kids up the road. It's just crazy! But we finally worked everything out and now things are good, thank God. I hate being mad at my best friend. It's like a part of me shuts off when things are going bad between us.

So yesterday, I didn't eat anything all day because she was hiding in her room. I was so hungry. So after she drove her mom around this morning, which is why she left the house early, she bought some food at Walmart. Chicken, with potato salad and she bought me a big Diet Pepsi and we had a good time talking, laughing, and just being us. I was very happy! In fact, I'm getting hungry and there's plenty of leftovers so when I'm done writing this blog, I'm going to go heat me up some more after I feed my animals. It was a good day and now she realizes what she did was not good and she knows why I got after her. I'm thankful to God that I still have my best buddy here with me.

Ok, that's all for now. Tomorrow, it's back to exercising. I'm going to try and do some DDP yoga tomorrow also. That'll be fun! Goodnight ;}

Day Two Hundred Eighty Two

Oh man...today is such a bad day. Another bad argument with Lisa again. We went out and did 3 miles again this morning. It was really good. When we came home, I was ready to do my jump roping and my weightlifting. Lisa goes inside and gets everything. I'm outside stretching my legs and starting up my dead lifts....then the door opens and Lisa comes walking out wearing no...

Well I'm not going to say. Just know that I got after her, she got mad and now she's locked herself in her room like a little kid. I'm so mad at how she's acting. I only got after her because I care about her and I didn't mean anything bad by it. Just got over protective of my best friend.

I don't know, it's all crap. Not to mention, this morning I got into it with another stupid friend of mine on facebook. Actually, now she's an ex friend. I ain't dealing with her dumb angry ass anymore. I'm so sick of her BS anyway. Every day all I see on my news feed is posts from her that say "F**K this and F**K that, F**K You and F**K Them" it was awful. That woman used the word 'F**K' as much as she used the word "the". It was insane and I really got tired of that, but I stuck it out. Now she gets drunk and starts talking all romantic to me, wanting a date and everything, then when she sobers up, she just ignores me. I swear, I HATE DRUNKS! I HATE PPL WHO DRINK! IT'S PATHEDIC! If you're thirsty, go drink some damn water and 86 the alcohol! Damn, I'm sick of dealing with drunk ppl. It's so F**King pathedic!

Well I'm too mad to write anymore.

Day Two Hundred Eighty One

Got up today but not too early this time. I was really sleepy this morning. I could not get up! But, eventually I did lol. Then I got ready and went headed out. Did 3 miles and I walked it strong again! Lisa came with me, as she has been everyday now. She really didn't want to come out today. She was feeling really lazy as well. Plus, she had to go to school today. Tuesdays she has class most the day and is not done until almost 5pm. So, needless to say, the rest of my day was rather dull. I really need to do some work outside, but it was kinda windy today. I didn't like it! I hate windy days, especially around here because it's so dry sometimes.

Oh man, my leg is really aching right now. I need to rest it up. Tomorrow, it's another day of the same thing. I haven't done my jump roping in a few days because my knee is really acting up on me. I go out there and try to do it, but my knee starts to throb. Pisses me off! Tomorrow I'm going to try and get it done though. Oh man, my legs are really tired tonight. Well, time to rest ;}

Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Eighty

Another day of a strong 3 miles! Oh man, the difference with my walks now compared to the ones I'd been doing that last 2 months, is I'm freakin tired afterwards. I mean I am TIRED! My legs are burning, I'm sweating! Before, nothing. I hardly broke a sweat and it must've took me a long time just to do one walk. I was just strolling. Dammit! That's a big tip, when you start to get lazy, especially around the holidays, you really need to watch your workouts. Sometimes you'll just start lagging really bad and not even notice it. Just because you do it, doesn't mean you're getting anything out of it. Sometimes your body will just get used to it and you won't be burning any calories, therefore you're not burning any fat. You really gotta push yourself where you're breathing heavily and breaking a sweat. Then you know for damn sure that you are getting somewhere because your body is really working overtime. That was the BIG mistake I made over the last two months. I wasn't pushing myself and because it was the holidays, I was allowing myself to eat sweets more often. I'm still not drinking any regular soda. When I do drink soda, it's always Diet. Now that doesn't not mean Anything good. Diet Soda doesn't mean you're doing it healthy. No soda is better than Diet soda. Try to stick to water. That's what I'm doing now, I'm really trying to finish an entire gallon of water per day. It's tough, it really is! Yesterday and today, I did not finish my gallon, but I came pretty darn close. I'm still trying and I know I'll be able to do it.

Well, not much else to really say for today. Rather dull for me this evening. So, I'm going to relax my legs. My right knee is doing the usual, acting up. I really hope it heals up. I'm sick of it hurting and slowing me down all the time. But, that's what I've gotta deal with given my 7 years of laziness.

Goodnight!

Day Two Hundred Seventy Nine

Woke up and did 3 miles this morning. Walked it pretty fast again. My legs were pretty burnt out afterwards. That was all I did the rest of the day, other than the Super Bowl tonight. Oh my gosh, that game was crazy! I just can't believe it. The Seahawks had it! They were right there, one yard away from being Back to Back Champions...and they pass it?! WTFudge! Seriously! I will never understand why they didn't give the ball to Lynch and have him just plow his way to the win. Damn! That was just...omgosh I still can't believe it!

Lisa came home early tonight and that's what we talked about, the crazy last play of the Super Bowl. I do not like the Patriots. I really don't! I don't really care for the Seahawks either, but they played so great in that game. I swear, they were almost going to be my second favorite team after the NY Giants. All the way up until the classless act of starting that big brawl after they blew it. Talk about No Sportsmanship man! I swear. That was embarrassing! Grown men fighting like little kids. So yeah, that totally blew my views of them out of the water. They were the ones who screwed up, and here they start throwing punches. That was disappointing!

Anyway, Lisa had a really cruddy day at work. She's really going thru some stuff with a kid there. I hope she can stay strong. As for me, I hope I'm doing good in my exercising. I really want to continue to push myself and really lose more weight before my Fyrescape is up in April. Just 3 months away now so I gotta get busy ;}

Goodnight!